I made some more progress on the rewrite today. It’s not as much as I’d hoped for, but I’ve got a lot of plates spinning, and this juggling bear keeps dropping his balls.
Stupid bear.
I did some searching of that knot, and explored the strange ambivalence I had when Jonathan asked me about my sketch comedy. Here’s the 1.7a version of that stuff:
“How did it go?”
“I took my sketch group out there and we did a show. It was really fun.”
“Oh! I heard about that. I hear you’re really funny.”
“Yeah, I try to entertain the kids.” I said. The knot nearly tightened so violently in my chest, it felt like a heart attack. I felt intensely uncomfortable and embarrassed. The feeling surprised me; here was the one thing that I’d been doing, and doing well, I was very proud of my sketch work, yet I didn’t want to talk about it.
“I may be funny in some sketch comedy shows that hardly anyone ever sees,” I thought, “but I’m struggling to pay my bills, I can’t get hired for anything in Hollywood, and all of you guys have gone on to be rich and famous. I may be funny, but I sure fucked up the biggest opportunity of my career when I quit ‘Star Trek.'”
I shoved several carrots in my mouth and I changed the subject.
“Have you been watching TNG on TNN?”
“Yeah,” he said, “It’s amazing how those old shows hold up.”
“Except Angel One,” I said.
“And Code of Honor,” he said.
“No vaccine!” we said in unison, quoting one of the actors in that show and laughed. The knot loosened.
“It’s so weird for me to watch them,” I said, “because I was so young. It’s like my high school yearbook has come to life.”
“That’s because you”ve actually grown up since then,” he said, “the rest of us have just gotten fatter.”
“Don’t let Marina hear you say that,” I said.
He thought for a moment, and added, “Okay, all of us except Marina.”
He winked. I smiled. The knot untied itself.
It’s not quite there, but it’s better. Writing about it also forced me to open some doors that I’d rather leave closed: I quit Star Trek to do other things in my career, but ended up doing other things in my life. I can’t say I regret that, because my life is really quite good. My career is in the shitter, but I’m not my career.
Yeah, right.
I keep telling myself that, but I still don’t fully believe it. I often feel like I had so much promise in my career (life) but I squandered it. I suppose the good side of that is I managed to blow most of my chances because I was young and immature, unlike most of my peers who blew their chances (lives) with drug abuse. That’s all well and good, but it’s cold comfort when I miss out on yet another fantastic acting opportunity, or when my agents dropped me earlier this year. Of course, with the notable exception of Patrick, the rest of the cast hasn’t exactly used Star Trek as a massive launching point for their acting careers, either. I suppose they don’t need to, and I’m sure they’re all content wherever they are in their lives (careers) . . . but I wonder if they ever feel like they missed any opportunities . . .
Woah. Got a little off-topic there. Sorry about that.
I spent some time today working on more of the story. I didn’t get very far, but I’m fairly happy with what I accomplished:
“Did you get the latest draft of the script?” Jonathan said to Brent.
“Oh my god, they’re talking about Nemesis!” My inner fanboy said.
‘shut up!” I said, “You’re not a fanboy here. You’re a peer. Be cool.”
I took my own advice and stood there, silent, and listened to them talk about the movie. Production hadn’t started yet, but I could tell that they were excited about putting on their uniforms and getting back into character.
While they talked, I felt like a grounded kid, sitting at the living room window, watching his friends play kickball in the street.
“They want to make some substantial changes to the wedding,” Brent said.
“I like it the way it is,” Jonathan said.
“Well, I’m talking with Stuart and Logan about it,” Brent said, “We’ll see what happens.”
“Is this really the last one?” I asked, in spite of myself.
“Yeah,” Brent said.
“I think so,” Jonathan said.
Illusions of returning to the bridge of the Enterprise, awoken just a month earlier on Star Trek: The Experience, quickly faded. In the hallway, the elevator bell rang again.
“That’s really sad,” I said, “It’s like the end of an era.”
“For all of us,” I thought.
“We’ve done it for so long,” Brent said, “I think it’s time for me to do something new. I’m getting too old to play Data.”
“I’m the only one who’s changed. They’ve just gotten older.” Jonathan’s words echoed in my mind.
A deep, commanding voice bounced off the marble floor of the hallway, and filled the room before its creator crossed the threshold.
“Are there Star Trek people in this room?” it boomed, “I just love those Star Trek people!”
We all turned to the door, as Patrick Stewart walked in.
Patrick is one of the most disarming people I’ve ever met. If you only know him as Captain Picard, or Professor Xavier, his mirthful exuberance is shocking. Patrick is one of the most professional and talented actors I’ve ever known, but he’s also one of the most fun.
“Bob Goulet” I haven’t seen you in ages, man! You look great!” he said to Brent, and hugged him.
“Jonathan Frakes! I am a big fan,” he smiled at Jonny and hugged him to.
He turned to me. “Who are you? You look familiar, but . . . I can’t place you.”
“Wil Wheaton, Mr. Stewart,” I said.
He looked thoughtful for a moment and shook his head. “I’m sorry, but it doesn’t ring a bell.”
“I was Wesley on Next Generation,” I said.
“Get out! You were never that young!” he said. “Do you know how old that makes me?”
“I do, sir,” I replied, solemnly, “I believe we spent some time in a shuttlecraft together.”
He nodded slowly, but remained unconvinced. “Go on . . .”
“That’s all I’ve got, man,” I laughed.
Patrick smiled broadly and said, “Wil, darling, you look wonderful.” He held his arms wide, and pulled me into a warm embrace. “I am so happy to see you!”
“You too,” I said.
He held me at arm’s length, and looked at me. Even though Patrick and I are the same height, I felt, like always, that he towered above me.
“I like that shirt, Wil. It’s very cool.”
He looked at Jonathan, then at Brent. We all wore black shirts. Brent and Jonathan wore black pants. Patrick wore a blue shirt and khaki pants.
“I guess I didn’t get the memo about wardrobe,” he said.
“It’s okay,” I said, “I don’t think anyone will notice.”
“Gentlemen, we’re ready for you downstairs,” one of the convention volunteers said from the doorway.
I felt a surge of adrenaline as we walked to the elevator.
I’ve noticed that almost everything I write lately comes out with great ease. I don’t have to search a lot of for words and feelings, and I spend considerably less time staring out the window at the Big Tree looking for them, like I did with Dancing Barefoot.
Something strikes me, as I recall these moments: the joy. I felt so much pure, unspoiled joy when I was around those guys, it was like being wired to a droud. I used to miss the chances at fame and fortune that were a consequence of my departure from Star Trek. Now, however, I just miss the joy that I should have embraced when I was there.
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You know what you guys could do?
Wesley can be the captain of some ship, and good ol’ Jean-Luc could be the Admiral on some other ship, and so on and so forth, and something happens, and all the ships of the senior crew come together and BAM!
Whoa there.
Now I sound like Emeril.
Guess we’ll have to leave it to the DVD’s to remember when way back in the day little Wesley was still pissing the captain off.
Loved the post!
Man, that is some good stuff!
Hey Wil!
Great job! I really enjoy reading these posts.. in fact your website is not my homepage.. thanks man!
-Zack Shutt
Think about all the things you were trying to do with your career:
a) Transition from a television actor to a movie actor
b) Transition from a child actor to an adult actor
If think about actors who have successfully done one of those, I can count them on one hand. If I think about actors who have successfully done both, I’m hard pressed to think of one.
I know you don’t want to make excuses, but try to keep things in perspective. And, besides, your career isn’t over. How hold are you? 31? 32? It’s not like you’re on your death bed over here. It must be weird having had such success at such an early age, but keep in mind that many people aren’t where they want to be with their career at your age. So just keep going, keep plugging, and things will happen.
Sorry about the earlier post, i meant to put your website is “NOW” my homepage. SoRrY man
tahnks fro evtyhing!
Thank you for your kind comments, you guys. And don’t worry, Zack . . . I make the “not / now” typo all the freakin’ time. 🙂
You mentioned David Sedaris recently, and I feel the same writing talent pouring off you in waves, young Wil…
Why not submit this rewriting session, read by you, as a segment on “This American Life” ?
(ThisLife.Org)
It seems very much in the same spirit as my favorite NPR program.
As a fellow writer, I only hope to be as expressive and evocative in my work as are you.
(Long-time reader)
C.J. Davez
Reading great Wil. I’ve loved your latest entries. I think the “Yeah, I try to entertain the kids.” paragraph could lose the “I was very proud of my sketch work” bit. I think that’s how you had it before?
Looking forward to the next edition of DB. I couldn’t get my hands on the first one, but I’ll sure as hell get a copy of this. Great work!
Excellent entry! When I first heard of your site I figured it would be lame. Boy, was I wrong. It’s one of my favorites. You’re a great communicator, Wil. (I have to confess, though, your website is *not* my homepage. sorry…)
Wil, I enjoy your comments on what you’re writing as much as the actual writing. If that’s what you think, maybe you should try to find a way to integrate it into the final draft. Just my initial response, though, that might sound like a really lame idea in about 3 hours.
“Now, however, I just miss the joy that I should have embraced when I was there.”
You’re getting all profound again, and it’s awesome.
Carpe Diem is a pretty universal truth, and so is a tinge of regret for every path we chose not to take, even when we remember to enjoy the path we’re on.
Rock on, Wil.
When do you get to the part where you were hanging out with Harrison Ford and Dave Powers in the Millenium Falcon?
Seriously.
Mark Hamil, you are my all time favorite actor and I’m so happy I’ve found your website!
Mang, that was some heartfelt shit. You should be concentrating on your second career, as a writer.
Ever thought about writing a bio about Back in the Day?
Or, writing a bio, but mixing it in with elements of today’s life as a writer, as per your blog? Might be a bit like Adaptation, the film, as you could have a well-written straight biography mixed in with your current life as a writer,and even a third string of elements from a new screenplay or set of short stories you are working on.
If it was well executed, it might allow you to demonstrate skills as a writer, embrace and explore your old carreer path and get some credit for both.
Just a thought from another writer dreaming of making a living by the keyboard.
You frickin’ troll, Russ, whoever you are.
GET OFF HERVE VILLECHAIZE’S SITE!!!
“Mark Hamil” indeed.
Don’t listen to him, Herve.
I’m loving it, Wil, but one thing…
carreer?
Hmmm, I don’t know, I think there’s lots of roles out there for you. It would be amusing to see you play Jack O’Neil’s “unknown” son on SG-1, and play it as an anti-Wesley much as he plays it as an anti-McGyver.
DOH.
“carreer” is the misspelling that’s sweeping the nation. It’s probably in my top 3 misspelled words.
Hey wil, that is some great writing! it just keeps getting better and better! Keep up the great work, dude!! I can’t wait for the finished product!! (seriously!!!)
MV…
I’ll always love you.
You are teh hot xmas babe.
With love,
Simon LeBon
Wil,
I’ve been a WWDN fan for only a short while…I discovered your site through my own blogging adventures (brand new to it as well) and decided to check you out. I heard a radio interview you did on 100.5 The ZOne (in Sacramento) when you were talking about the last TNG movie, and thought to myself: “Man, this guy is actually hilarious!” After that I kept my eyes and ears open for anything you were involved with…so, when I found your blog and continued to be impressed with Wil Wheaton as a person and not some actor who could care less about the rest of the world, I was really excited. I’ve linked you to my blog (hope you don’t mind)…anyway–sorry ’bout getting off track here. I wrote to say this:
A few weeks ago you wrote something (forgive me is I mis-quote) about how most actors as children watched a lot of TV, and most writers read a lot… well, honestly doll, I think you’re a great actor..but an awesome writer! kudos man, kudos.
~~g
Russ:
Thank you.
Enjoy your new carrrrrrreeeeeerrrr.
MV
I think the most striking thing about your writing is how much it makes the reader feel like a companion or friend. Reading these rewrites you’ve been doing, and your website as a whole, it honestly seems like you could be a friend of mine, a guy I know. It’s so down-to-earth and honest, without crossing the threshold into being overwhelmingly casual and becoming awkward or boring. Your writing ability is really above and beyond. I’ll wake up early just to go out and buy “Just A Geek” when it first comes out.. and that’s coming from a non-literary seventeen year-old. Take it as a big compliment.
wil…
your career is renaissancing -reinventing itself- right now (in case you haven’t noticed….*grin*) you’re discovering all kinds of cool jazz about life. and dangit, you might not have a-list hollywood prestige like .005% of the world, but you have a MASSIVE – growing- fan base (in case you haven’t noticed!) and a different, equally astonishing kind of celebrity power. you have a distinct voice, wil, and you’ve made amazing things happen. you’ve put the star power you do have to excellent use, and those of us who love you have faith you’ll continue to.
and that’s Important…….so don’t beat yourself up about “carreer” crap so much, k? *grin*
—the wheatie sophomore
Lord preserve me from having to be my career, because then I would actually have to be a File Clerk. In real life I’m a nature photographer and I’ve done stand up at the Improv and written one act plays. We aren’t what we have to do, we are what we want to do. Keep up the good work, you rock.
Wil, has there really been any movies that you thought to yourself “Wow, it would have been nice to have been a part of that”. Movies over the past 10 years or so have really sucked. Keep on keeping on like you are, you’re better than the rest of those schmucks.
Dangit! I should have been around months ago. I would have gotten the first edition. Oh well, I guess I’ll just have to wait patiently for the next rewrite.
*nudges Will* Just send my copy on notebook paper with typos, grease stains and all. Really, I don’t mind ^_~
If you’d gone the hollywood route, the world would have missed on a great writer. This was an amazing re-write.
As always, I was moved to want to tell you how impressed I am by your voice. Thank you for sharing…
Well I’m glad to see others have beaten me to these same comments but: WHY are you so hard on yourself?! Knock it off!
Your career is far from over, and many begin at your age. Don’t worry so much about it. Keep that quick clever mind of yours open and continue to follow your heart. I really don’t think its mislead you yet. I’ve enjoyed your books in the past and am absolutely looking forward to another!
Don’t make me sic “Clarence” on you (being the season and all… he’s busy! 🙂 )
I have to say your writing put me in your shoes (I hope they were at least a 10 1/2, or I owe you a pair).
You know you can’t worry about “what could have been” (and I’m sure that somewhere in DB you come to that conclusion, I haven’t read ver. 1.0 yet). But if you haven’t noticed, there are actors who seemed to have fallen off the face of the earth (like Georgia Engle [yeah, painful comparison]) who’ve seemed to have made a semi-comeback. Maybe there will be a director who remembers that Wil Wheaton didn’t only play Wesley. It will happen.
Life isn’t the big moments; it’s all the shit in-between the big moments that make up life.
Okay, okay. I totally did a Dave, and fixed the outrageous number of misspelled “careers.”
Color me terribly embarassed.
Just kidding. Embarrassed. I know 🙂
“I often feel like I had so much promise in my career (life) but I squandered it.”
How can you say that you’ve squandered it? You could still be in Star Trek, but then you would be forever typecast as Wesley Crusher — which is what I thought you had wanted to separate yourself from all along? In fact, now that you have separated yourself from Star Trek, aren’t you a cooler person for having done it? You are now Wil Wheaton the writer, not Wesley Crusher, right?? And you would have never known how great of a writer you are if you hadn’t turned down the Star Trek opportunity. . .
In other words, don’t put yourself down. . . Acknowledge the knot in your chest at the time, but don’t let it work its way back. You did good!
Hey there Wil. I’ve never posted here before but I just wanted to say that I never heard of Patrick Stewart before TNG except for and apearance in one “obscure” movie called Dune and even then I had to go back and check if it was really the same guy. I share your high opinion of him–I think hes stinkin great–but honestly, I never really heard of him before trek. Perhaps that is just due to my ignorance at the ripe ol age of 11 when the series started but you still have a long time before you are even as old as Patrick was when he was in Dune. I think he was already bald then. I know how it goes, I’m 26 and I get to thinking I’m old and sometimes think that the good years are past and reminisce about all the awesome experiences that are behind me and can’t be resurrected, but shoot! Theres so much more life ahead. Its not a guaranteed thing but you have lots of talent, heart, and you as previous posters already mentioned, you’re a pretty good writer. You drew me into the setting and made me feel what you did. Heh, and you got to act with “Punky Brewster” in a movie. Besides, did you see DS9, or Voyager “engage auto destruct sequence” pc crapola that they made after TNG? You were in the good one. Heh.
“It’s not quite there, but it’s better. Writing about it also forced me to open some doors that I’d rather leave closed: I quit Star Trek to do other things in my career, but ended up doing other things in my life. I can’t say I regret that, because my life is really quite good. My career is in the shitter, but I’m not my career.
Yeah, right.”
You have to look at it this way…
What is your life defined by? Is it by your career, or who you are as a person and the life that you lead?
If it’s by your career then we’re all pretty much screwed!
-Matt W.
Spell checkers will catch “carreer”, but it’s up to you to nab and nix that “nearly” in the first larger paragraph. I know you dug SK’s “On Writing”, don’t forget what he said about the judicious (read: minimal) usage of adverbs…
/pedant
(Rock on King Willie, and keep it comin’)
Hey, Wil- long-time listener, first-time caller. Two thoughts-
One, if anybody wants to see Patrick Stewart’s mirthful exuberance (and other moods as well) they should rent the movie Jeffrey. Two… show business is weird. You know that. Your career could be resurrected on the turn of a dime through no action or fault of yours. Maybe some TNG fan becomes the next Tarentino. Stranger things have happened.
This is incredible stuff, Wil. The more you open up with your emotions, the more engaging the stories become. I found your conversation with your son very touching, and the current rewrites getting better with each addition. You’re a brave man to display your innermost desires and fears to the public. That’s one of the things that makes a great writer and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed everything I’ve read on your site. Keep it going.
It seems very difficult to survive in the entertainment industry…emotionally, as well as everything else. I think we’re about the same age and I know how much I’ve struggled with being happy with who I am and what I was doing. As an adult, I’ve come to terms with not caring what strangers think about me, but I guess you haven’t had that luxury since audience opinion means everything to actors. Keep it going. Keep auditioning.
You’re an intelligent, resilient, resourceful, and hella-funny guy. Reading your blogs is like having conversations with my friends. You’d fit right in 🙂 Keep the laughter coming and take pride in your wonderful creation here. Thanks for sharing yourself.
Wil…you just get better and better! Thank you for sharing this process with us.
Rick
I’ve got to disagree, Wil. You are, in fact, your career. Not your Hollywood career, but yourself. You are your own career. If you subtract Stand By Me, Toy Soldiers, Star Trek, and everything else you’ve done, you’re still your career. It’s all right here.
With WWdN, you write about your life. People come here and read about it. In effect, your life has become your career, and we’re all your fans. We come here to see what the real Wil is up to, what’s got him happy as a clam or lower than Dubya’s IQ. We don’t come to read about whatever Wesley is reversing the polarity of. We come to see what Wil is thinking, feeling or doing.
I have lots of respect for Frakes, Spiner and Stewart. But, IMHO, you’re more rich than they could ever be. You’ve moved beyond your Hollywood identity and related with your fans in the real world on a whole other level. People will laude Patrick for his work with the RSC, Star Trek, X-Men, and other things he does/has done.
You? You’ll be lauded for being you. Not acting, not doing comedy. Just being you. Wil Wheaton, reagular guy who just happened to be in movies and on TV a while back.
Oh yeah. And author of two of the most honest and heartfelt books of the 21st century. Can’t forget that. Good stuff, Wil! Keep up the great work.
So, you could be Wil Wheaton, Huge Hollywood Actor, or Wil Wheaton, Mrs. Wheaton’s devoted husband and step-father to two boys who love you. Wil Wheaton who shares his everyday life with thousands of loyal readers who care about things like how his lawn is doing and whether he has read / watched / listened to anything cool lately.
Yeah, you’re right, you totally blew it.
There, now we’re both being silly.
Snap out of it, Wil! We love you just the way you are!
On past ocassions you’ve stated that Berman screwed you over one summer so that you couldn’t do a movie…….even though they ended up intentionally writing you out of the script of the first episode.
If you had stayed on Trek then you’re right, they would have owned you. Self-respect is a very important thing in life.
I hate doing this but it reminds me of the episode where Picard almost dies and Q shows him what his life would have been like had he done things differently. You have no idea what’s going to come in life or that you would have even been happy in whatever life you would have had if you had continued in TNG.
From reading your website over the past year it looks to me like you’ve been focusing on the important things in life more than a “career”.
Thanks for the career perspectives, everyone. I really appreciate it. Thanks also for the notes about grammar and spelling and stuff. It will make my editor think I’m smarter than I am (unless he reads this. Dammit!)
You know, when I think about where my life is, and where I am in it, I’m very happy . . . but it would be totally untrue for me to wonder what could have been. It frustrates me to no end that I struggled so long and so hard in Hollywood, and I really do feel like I blew a big chance.
I *am* happy writing, and I *am* proud of what I have been able to do . . . and I just realized that I’ve been able to take my acting abilities and stuff, and use them to bring characters to life when I write.
Hrm.
That’s pretty cool.
Great point about being pwn3d by Paramount, HammR. I tend to forget that.
Hey Wil,
I’m relatively new to (sporadically) reading your blog, and it’s quite fantastic. You have a wonderful ease with words–and an ability to make the written word sound conversational and very engaging. I’ll pick up a copy of the next run of your book, and am looking forward to it…
I read a bit in the comments for your last post about the possibility of an audio book/CD, and I would say go for it. I have two other suggestions:
1. Someone mentioned submitting to This American Life. I would also say, get in touch with your local NPR station, or with their DC headquarters. They solicit interesting commentaries and anecdotes sometimes, and I’m fairly certain they take submissions too. It would rock to hear you do a regular piece on radio. Which sort of segues into my next utterly unsolicited suggestion:
2. Get in touch with the folk at Audible.com and see if they might be interested in carrying some of your stories. I admit, I am not all that familiar with them, but they seem to be very interested in all manners of spoken word material. From what I understand, yours is one of the most popular blogs around, and isn’t a built-in audience always a good selling point?
nice website…i’m also an “actor” here in Brasil (i’m a “child star” in a TV school drama/comedy,called Malha
I want, no, I will be a director one day. And when I am, Wil, I will do any and everything that I can to get you into my movies. First, though, I’m going to China for awhile. So… even if it’s 10 years until I’m in a position to direct movies, when the time comes, if you’re still interested in acting, you’re welcome into my films. 🙂
Cap’n Will:
Arr!
A couple of years ago I looked up a former boss, a guy that had really set my head on straight, and gave me a bright star to steer by. I called him up and I said “thank you for everything you did for me”. He almost cried. Nobody had ever told him that he had made a big difference in their lives, and he was very touched that after 15 or so years I cared enough to track him down and tell him.
A recurring theme in a series of books I call The Evil Ones, Chicken Soup for the Soul, is people that don’t let others in their lives know how much they mean to you. This story of yours, today, kind of touched that nerve in me. As cliche as it is, have you ever told these guys that they really do mean a lot to you, and they hold a special place in your heart? Maybe you should. Just a thought…
TTFN
Cap’n Andrew
You made me google “droud”. Oh, it’s a Larry Niven Ringworld reference. Interestingly, Niven says that “droud” was a typographical error he kept making for “crowd”. If you ever start writing fiction, Wil, you can start using your typos.
http://www.larryniven.org/stories/words.htm
I still find it so ironic, how Wil was in “Stand By Me”, and the basic concept was of a grown up Gordie, writing all about the adventure he and some friends had as young boys. Essentially, Wil, your life has almost followed that movie. Here we are, a grown up Wil Wheaton, writing about many adventures he had as a young boy, and even beyond that. A little forshadowing there, no? 😉
As far as your career or whatnot. I don’t know how things are for you as far as Hollywood is concerned, but as far as I can tell, you are a hell of a lot better off than you would be if you had stayed in Trek. You may have become a snobbish jerk if you had stayed. Who knows. As it stand, you have more than many people out there, even if you don’t make the money that someone such as Patrick makes. It doesn’t matter. Money can only buy material things. See, you didn’t end up face down in the gutter. You didn’t end up locked away in a dank jail cell somewhere. You didn’t end up hiding from your problems in some rehab center. You aren’t a security guard in Beverly Hills. You aren’t in a metal box six feet under a cold, lifeless headstone. And the best part, You are married to a wonderful woman that you love, and who loves you. You have two wonderful stepsons. You have good pets. You have a house, a car, and the ability to write words in a manner that leaves vivid pictures and strong emotions in those who read them. You have lots of friends, and even if you never set foot in front of a camera again for the rest of your life, you have dedicated fans that will always adore you, and even handfulls of asshats that just itch for your attention, even if it is annoying.
Add all that up, and as far as I am concerned Wil, it makes you the richest man in the Alpha Quadrant. Happy Holidays to you, Anne, the boys, and the dogs 🙂
Frank
Wil,
Wow, you are a real writer. Most writers, write to much. You seem to be a person who loves to talk. Nothing wrong with that but how do you just write, write, write and write so often without a professor telling you that a paper is due? To you it is fun. You are a good story teller, to me. Keep up the good work.
FG
To further flog the dead equine: you bring a lot of joy to a huge number of people every day with your writing; you are a constant inspiration to two wonderful boys and a loving and devoted husband; a fantastic writer; a complete geek (not easy when the tech changes every nanosecond)..sounds like a full and successful life to me. What might have been will always plague all of us. I might have been Miss Universe if it weren’t for the fact I’m short and dumpy and have no talent. Your talent was (and is) recognized both as an actor and a writer. I have to say it takes a lot to make me react when I watch a movie, yet you constantly evoke a full range of emotions when I sit down to read the next entry in the blog. Thank you for not being such a “success” that your talents become buried in that limelight.