Yesterday, I told one of my friends that I felt really good about this job, but I didn’t want to think that this is some huge “I’m back!” deal, where I buy into all the bullshit hype that Hollywood likes to sneak into your drink when you’re not looking.
“I am hyper-aware of not believing my own hype.” I said. “So much, I often don’t stop to enjoy it when good things happen.”
He thought a second and said, “It’s a simple matter of not telling everyone else how cool you feel and then re-evaluating the following day. For me often times success mitigates itself the next day.”
He is extraordinarily successful, and does about a million cool things a day, so I think he knows what he’s talking about.
“I guess what I mean is, all these people e-mail, and comment, and tell me that they’re pulling for me, and hoping that one of these things finally works out. Now that it’s happened, I feel like I’ve lived up to their belief in me.” I said. “Do you know I mean? Or do I sound like a total dick?”
“Nah, that’s it.” He said.
So, I hope my friend is right. I want to take a moment and say:
Thank you. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for supporting me the last few years, while I’ve sort of really struggled to figure out who I am and where I’m going. Thank you all so much for sending your thoughts my way while I worry about Sketch. Thank you to everyone who has left a comment, or sent an e-mail, or blogged about CSI. I know that this is just one stop along The Journey, and the hype is certianly not going to my head . . . but I think I would be a fool if I didn’t stop and enjoy it just a little bit.
Okay, a lot 🙂
Things continue to be Balanced, though. Sketch hasn’t improved at the rate we thought and hoped he would. Though he doesn’t seem to be uncomfortable or unhappy at all, and he’s eating regularly, his breathing is still very high (between 44 and 50). He responds to his diuretic, but I’m worried about the stress it’s putting on his little kidneys. He is going to be re-checked tomorrow morning and we’ll know more . . . but I’m still scared. He’s been sleeping on my chest every night since he came home, and my heart aches when I face the reality that he may not be doing that much longer.
So I’ll have a whole bunch of emotional turmoil, which I’ll use to bring Walter to life when I shoot the episode, which I just found out starts tomorrow afternoon for me.
I’ll write as much about the experience as the production will allow, and I hope to update my moblog and audioblog frequently, as long as it doesn’t get in the way of work.
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Hey Wil – Still sending Sketch plenty of Mojo for the weeks to come. Hope the filming goes well, congrats again on booking a great role. I look forward to seeing Walter come to life!
–T
I can feel your pain and sorrow in your words. It breaks my heart to read about what you are going through with Sketch. I have some very special cats in my life too. I know how hard it is to watch Sketch go through this. Especially the not knowing part. *hugs* to you all.
Congrats again on the CSI gig.
Much mojo to the little one. My oldest are 10 (cat) and 11 (dog) and I dread having to go through this with both of them.
As for your good news, I felt all day like one of my friends got a kick ass job. Thank you for sharing your life with us, Wil.
Oh my gosh I am SO HAPPY for you Wil. I’m an actor & a computer programmer, also someone who had a lot of publicity when she was young etc. I am not kidding you man you have been an inspiration without this role, and I feel so so so happy for you that you landed it. ENJOY IT. Just enjoy it. Congratulations!!!
Your blog is delightful to read, as where both of your books!! I am so happy for you!! I’ve never watched CSI, but I will watch this episode. Please keep us posted on when it’ll air.
Am thinking of both you and Sketch and hoping he recovers soon.
It’s been a struggle for you and you’ve grown so much… somehow that makes it all worth it.
Best wishes!!
I just wanted to say congratulations!! I’m so happy you got such a great opportunity. Plus the entry you wrote about the job was one of the most well writen ones you’ve done. I hope that it will be included in a future book! Congrats again and I can’t wait to see you on the show!
I just wanted to say congratulations!! I’m so happy you got such a great opportunity. Plus the entry you wrote about the job was one of the most well written ones you’ve done. I hope that it will be included in a future book! Congrats again and I can’t wait to see you on the show!
Sending Sketch a lot more positive mojo!!!!
Break a leg tomorrow, Wil!
Sending Sketch a lot more positive mojo!!!!
Break a leg tomorrow, Wil!
Sending Sketch a lot more positive mojo!!!!
Break a leg tomorrow, Wil!
On stopping to enjoy it:
If I can lend you a little Gestault psychotherapy… You hit the nail on the head with the word “stop”. When you can take a minute to slow down and not consider tomorrow or yesterday, you get to really be right there in the middle of feeling excited. And then it’s not about ego or other people or anything else– it’s just about being aware of how you feel. And it feels GREAT.
Again Congrats on getting the part wil, think its very well deserved but I have to say the part in your blog where you said thank you was kinda like someone giving the oscar acceptance speech for best actor! Prob wont be a popular thing to say on here at mo, but its meant to be a constructive comment not a negative one. Im just the kinda guy thats not big on grand thank you gestures, as i think thanks is not expected or needed, if anything all the guys here should be thanking you for all the effort you put into your site. so THANK YOU TOO. lets end the mutual admiration society here though k? HA! again congrats and hopefully sketch will get better soon bud.
laterz
Noel
Wil,
Don’t worry so much about getting over-excited. No one thinks that just because you have a guest shot on a popular TV show you’re going to suddenly have a massive explosion of ego. For god’s sake, I’m like a little kid on Christmas when something good happens to ME at work. And this is a big thing for you. Just live in the moment for a while, and avoid coming back to reality until you have to 🙂
I hope Sketch gets better. I know I’d be upset if my dog was going through the same thing. I’m sure the kitty will be just fine.
Looking forward to CSI,
Karen
Good Job Wil! Break a leg! Looking forward to seeing the episode of CSI, you’re appearance will actually cause me to watch network TV again!
Much positive Mojo to Sketch, I feel your pain, I must admit I shed more than a few tears reading about you’re dilemma, got a big ole soft spot for cool kitties!
I am echoing what chritiane said. I have been lurking here and reading your blog for a year or two, bought both of your books and loved them, donated for the leukemia walk, etc. I am posting for the first time to let you know there must be thousands of others out here like me who also wish you well, send mojo to Sketch and delight in your heartfelt honesty on this blog – all without your knowing it! Thank you for sharing your life with us and speaking for the silent hoard:
Break a leg tomorrow and love to Sketch and your family!
Just wanted to say CONGRATS and can’t wait to see the episode of CSI you will be in. Also, many wishes and good luck to Sketch!
Nice Blog, Wil. Break a leg.
*Major Sketch Mojo continues*
Quote:
“…all these people e-mail, and comment, and tell me that they’re pulling for me, and hoping that one of these things finally works out. Now that it’s happened, I feel like I’ve lived up to their belief in me.” I said. “Do you know I mean? Or do I sound like a total dick?” End Quote.
As an Asian girl, I know a thing or two about living up to Expectations and the fear of not doing that. Wil, all of us are just here for the ride. We’re rooting for you because every time in the past, when you get punched in the stomach or kicked in the nuts (the times that we know about), we feel a little of that pain. You’re a cool guy, a great writer who also happens to be an actor. In fact, you’re so cool that you bring us WWdNers along to your auditions and give us backstage tours to the studios and to your mind. SO, this CSI thing…it’s yours, man. OWN IT. Don’t let fear or anyone take it away from you. You earned the opportunity, you should enjoy it. Don’t let us “backseat drive”. You should say, “HEY, I’m going where I want to go and if you kids don’t like it, get the heck off my cart!” That’s because you’re one cool cat and a bad muther…you get the point.
And re. Sketch? Love him and cherish him while he’s here. Wishing both of you the best.
Wil
I haven’t written for a while because of the type key thing. But now I’m signed up. I do read all your blogs though.
I’m really happy for you about the CSI show. I was telling my son that you were going to be on and he said “find out when…we’ll have to watch”. So, We’ll be waiting for the show to air. My wife already watches.
By the way, keep telling your son that you love him even if he doesn’t return it back. Kids should hear it at least once a day. It’ll be a stable force in his life. It’s good for their self esteem. He’ll never say when he’s down, “Nobody loves me”.
Give Sketch a pet from me.
Congrats to you, Wil, and scritches and love to Sketch. I’ve been hugging my own feline furballs more every day since reading about what you and your family are going through.
You deserve every single bit of success that comes your way. Have fun with the CSI shoot!
My prayers are still with Sketch, and I am glad to hear he is eating and he seems to be really happy he is back home.
Also you should be taking the time to enjoy the excitment of getting this role, you deserve it.
It is important to take the time to smell the roses.
I am so proud/excited for you for getting this part. I can’t wait when it airs, I will surely watch.
Wow.
I’m called out of town for a week to dispense Justice and take Vengeance elsewhere, and upon my return find that not only has Sketch improved, but that you’ve booked CSI! Holy. Fucking. Crap. I guess it was worth it to be Computerless in Trailerparkville if I get to return to *this* kind of news!
*sigh* I guess this means I’ll have to call and have my cable hooked back up. Hubby and I had it disconnected a couple of years ago because we wearied of paying over $100.00 a month for the four shows we watched. In addition to the ever-increasing expense, the idiot-box was doing nothing for our figures and even less for our creativity.
Meh. I’ll just ask my friend if we can come over and watch your episode on his MegaHuge plasma screen TV the night it airs. Knowing the incompentent fuck-ups that run our cable company out here, your episode will have long since aired and be into syndication by the time they hooked our cable up again.
Congratulations, Wil. You deserve it. The mojo continues to be directed your way for everyone; you, wife, kids, and pets.
Justice is indeed served,
The Goddess of Justice and Vengeance
P.S. I hunted about and found my copy of Dove Audio’s “The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn”. I’ll listen to it tonight in honor of your CSI job, as Hubby and I down a rare Guinness. (I’m going out to buy some in just a moment. This is truly cause for celebration! My homecoming just happens to coincide with this wonderful news!)
Again, congrats. Let’s hope that your episode is the highest-rated episode ever watched! Your Posse can make it happen!!
Hey wil, congratulations so much on the CSI thing! i was at work when i read that post, and i was sooo excited i nearly burst! YEY!!! am looking forward to hearing as much about it as you can tell us! yippeeee for you!
still sending kitty mojo for Sketch, and some support mojo for you and the family, i know what you’re going through….when pets are ill, it just totally weighs on your mind!
anyway, enough of the essay!
take care wil, and good luck tomorrow!
“Long days and pleasant nights”
love rach
Wil, I have always been rooting for you. You are an actor that I have always admired and due to this blog am able to really keep up on. It is almost like by sharing your ups and downs you give me reasons to keep going day to day.
I don’t know if you understand how much that means, to watch a fellow creative person struggle so much, and be able to celebrate the small victories along with the large ones.
I just wanted to finally comment and thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Julie from Seattle.
Big congrats on getting the CSI role Wil. I’ll be looking forward to seeing it. Not being a CSI watcher, I’ll definitely be on the look out for that one, whenever it shows out here in Australia.
I’m sorry Sketch isn’t responding brilliantly to the treatment. You’ve been having a lousy run of luck with your kitties this last twelve months, Felix and now Sketch being unwell.
Gong Xi Fa Cai for the lunar new year anyway, and I hope it brings health and happiness to you and your family, human and animal.
Greetings and Salutations. Treasure every moment with Sketch, and everyone else. Then again after following your career in the “teen Mags” when I was younger to reading both of your books, you seem to have that idea under control. A lot of people have had faith in you, and it is great to see a wonderful human being. You will do great in anything you do, and I know that I do not know you personally, but I get the jist of who you are. Hope for the best, expect the worst, and take what the powers that be hand out. I know easier said than done. I will be waiting to read more of your blogs, it is funny, but I just resently found out about the whole blog thing, and I really like the whole set up. Glad you have one, even gladder I read it.
Keep us posted on the CSI episode, I had to call my whole family and let them know. We are a CSI geek family, the christmas presents showed it. Even planning a “CSI party” for the night Walter comes to life. I cant wait to see it.
Give the family and all the animals a hug (or pet) from me. I state again, it is great to see someone with a heart, it is awesome.