Yesterday, I told one of my friends that I felt really good about this job, but I didn’t want to think that this is some huge “I’m back!” deal, where I buy into all the bullshit hype that Hollywood likes to sneak into your drink when you’re not looking.
“I am hyper-aware of not believing my own hype.” I said. “So much, I often don’t stop to enjoy it when good things happen.”
He thought a second and said, “It’s a simple matter of not telling everyone else how cool you feel and then re-evaluating the following day. For me often times success mitigates itself the next day.”
He is extraordinarily successful, and does about a million cool things a day, so I think he knows what he’s talking about.
“I guess what I mean is, all these people e-mail, and comment, and tell me that they’re pulling for me, and hoping that one of these things finally works out. Now that it’s happened, I feel like I’ve lived up to their belief in me.” I said. “Do you know I mean? Or do I sound like a total dick?”
“Nah, that’s it.” He said.
So, I hope my friend is right. I want to take a moment and say:
Thank you. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for supporting me the last few years, while I’ve sort of really struggled to figure out who I am and where I’m going. Thank you all so much for sending your thoughts my way while I worry about Sketch. Thank you to everyone who has left a comment, or sent an e-mail, or blogged about CSI. I know that this is just one stop along The Journey, and the hype is certianly not going to my head . . . but I think I would be a fool if I didn’t stop and enjoy it just a little bit.
Okay, a lot 🙂
Things continue to be Balanced, though. Sketch hasn’t improved at the rate we thought and hoped he would. Though he doesn’t seem to be uncomfortable or unhappy at all, and he’s eating regularly, his breathing is still very high (between 44 and 50). He responds to his diuretic, but I’m worried about the stress it’s putting on his little kidneys. He is going to be re-checked tomorrow morning and we’ll know more . . . but I’m still scared. He’s been sleeping on my chest every night since he came home, and my heart aches when I face the reality that he may not be doing that much longer.
So I’ll have a whole bunch of emotional turmoil, which I’ll use to bring Walter to life when I shoot the episode, which I just found out starts tomorrow afternoon for me.
I’ll write as much about the experience as the production will allow, and I hope to update my moblog and audioblog frequently, as long as it doesn’t get in the way of work.
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Congrats! My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. I really hope that you kitty feels better and that the best can only come out of all this. Who or what is up there has a plan for you and all of us, you just got to trust in your faith.
Love and prayers
What you’re talking about is life…good, bad, and ugly. Hang in there Wil and Sketch!
I hope that you enjoy it. I also hope that you get to have a scene with Jorja Fox. That would be uber cool.
Hey Wil,
As far as Sketch goes, and I must respond when an animal owner is in distress, the best thing you can do is just TRY and allow the Meds to work, and I am sure the Vet will take tests to be sure his kidneys are not being damaged too much. (If they are, there are other Meds that he can be given as an alternative if the Lasik is not working)
Now, the CSI gig and your excitement, ALLOW it to be exciting and get to you, you’ve earned it buddy. You are very cool for feeling the need to tell us how you appreciate the support.
Please give Skecth a pet, stay calm about him, break a leg tomorrow, and take a big congradulatory smooch from me. (I think I covered everythig)
🙂
-Quincey
Hi Wil,
I just wanted to add to the many congratulations on CSI and on the blog. I’ve only just started reading it (linked from another blog) and I have to say that I check it mostly every day now.
I also wanted to say sorry about Sketch 🙁 I know what its like to see your cat – a beloved family member – go through so much pain and not being able to help as much you want to. If I could I would give you and your family a big cuddle to sooth the pain and worry just a little. I’ve lost a few cats during my life and it doesn’t get easier, but the things that did help me (and others through it) was to know that they aren’t in anymore pain, and that there were friends and family around for support. Just keep those in mind. I will keep hoping that Sketch gets better and is back to his fat ol’ self soon! *huggle*
Totally pulling for you, Wil. And Sketch, too… *holds breath and gives him kitty-huggles ’cause she’s allergic*
Hey cuz, sorry to hear about Sketch…hang in there. I know the heartache that you are going through and am thinking about you guys.
On a somewhat happy note, congrats on CSI!! That is great news and I am very happy for you. Take care.
‘Grats on the CSI gig. I’m looking forward to seeing it, and hearing more about it in the future.
We’re all rooting for Sketch in my house. Kitty karma continues to flow your way.
d.
Enjoy your success, you have earned it. We’re pulling for Sketch!
I can’t wait to see you on your episode of CSI. I hope that you have a great experience working with them.
More kitty prayers coming your way….
Congrats on landing the CSI gig, I’m looking forward to seeing your take on a crazy homeless guy! Your situation reminds me of the recent appearence of Neil Patrick Harris on Law & Order CI – he played creepy crazy so well I hardly recognized him until my husband explained who he was!
Sketch is eating again, that sounds good… I hope his next check up goes ok!
-ja
What I found out in *Life* Wil..
Is: “The Only Thing You Can Count On, is Not Being Able to Count On Anything”..
Of course that could be true for me only, I Dunno…
Cheers,
Keith (Xgaming) Dick
Rock on!!!
i love it when the good guys win.
(psst. that’s you.)
i think, as an *homage* to wesley, you should get the casting folkses to put you in ironic, chunky sweaters.
or not. please don’t.
my kitty herd is pulling for sketch. in fact, my kali just snuck a bite of my pb sammich to show her caring and concern.
::scritches for the lil guy::
::pat onna back for the big guy::
inside, the skin of a dog. outside, the hide of a tiger.
Everyone’s experience with losing an animal companion is different. But in the last couple of years I lost both my aged cats. While it was incredibly difficult (and embarrasing when I started crying at work) I hope it is somewhat reassuring that after a long time, the pain turned back into the love that I had felt. I miss them terribly but I know that pain is because I was so lucky to have loved and been loved by them.
Losing Sketch will be terrible. But they never truly leave you.
Hey, we believe in you, because there’s something pretty damn cool about you to believe in.
And much love to Sketch. It may be a week or a year that you still have with him, so you need to treasure however long or short that is. I didn’t get to do that for my late cat, and I regret it a great deal. Give him a good ear rub for all of us.
My girlfriend and I have been crossing our fingers for Sketch…
Enjoy this wonderful life – go celebrate, do a little dance! You deserve it!
-Rachel
My girlfriend and I have been crossing our fingers for Sketch…
Enjoy this wonderful life – go celebrate, do a little dance! You deserve it!
-Rachel
CSI! that is so cool. I guess I’m going to have to watch it for once. I’m sending good mojo to all y’all and especially to Sketch. I know how easy it is to start counting breaths and fretting over them (I’ve got an asthmatic cat). Trust the vet to do everything they can and trust that Sketch wants to stick around and be with you. And have a good time on the show!
Wil,
I’ve been out on travel and just catching up on your pages. First of all — and most importantly — Sketch! All the mojo I can summon is heading your way to help this little guy. You’re doing the right things for him and props to you for that. We went through a very similar thing with our cat a few years back — and he had been with us for 16 years. When the time came to do the right thing we did it, and he has remained in our hearts since then. Sketch depends on you do the right things, which you’re doing. He’s loved and he knows it.
Secondly — about CSI. That’s absolutely great! I can’t wait to see the episode. To me what you’ve gone through to get where you are is essential to what you have to do to carry through the character.
So, give ’em hell and keep us posted on how much fun it all is!
SW
Hey Wil, sending lots of feline mojo your way. Hope Sketch feels better soon.
And yes, monkeys ARE good people. =)
Sketch, hang in there. Your people love you very much. Star and Maui are still pulling for you. And so are we; we love kitties.
Now, Wil…get in there, kick their ass with your portrayal of Walter (who, like so many of the characters you find on World Championship Poker, does what the voices in his head tell him to), and enjoy yourself. Try not to worry about Sketch; Pamela says what’s happening sounds normal for what he’s going through. Sketch will have good days and bad days, and when he has no real quality of life left, that will be the time to let him go, but it sounds like he’s not near that point yet. (She used to be a vet tech, so she knows something about this.)
Here’s more good wishes from up in the Mile High!
Wow so much has happened since I last read your blog.
1-A good friend once told me not to say “I’m sorry” when expressing condolences (okay I can’t spell, but you get the point) instead he said to say “That sucks” so…That sucks about your cat. I lost a cat I totally adored. He was hit by a car and watching him suffer was murder. So I know what you are going through. You never know about cats though and I hope Sketch pulls through. I’ll be thinking about you and your family and Sketch. My love and thoughts go out to you all.
2-A hearty congratulations for CSI! I never watch that show since I’m a Law & Order girl, but I will def. watch your episode and I think you should congratulate yourself and be proud as much as you want. You are truly talented and you deserve all the kick ass roles you can get. I know you will be awesome! I can’t wait!
I’m definitely keeping Sketch, and the rest of your family in my prayers. I know how hard it can be when a pet gets this sick. You’re doing everything you can for him, and I’m sure he knows it. If he could, he would do the same for you. Just make sure that with all this excitement going on, you remember to take some time to relax. :o) Good luck tomorrow, and HAVE FUN!
A suggestion: If That Day comes, where you may have to part with your beloved Sketch (God forbid), take some photos of him that day before he goes. I’ve got two of my lost babes taped to my computer monitor, and it’s nice to have them there, even if I can’t pet them and kiss them anymore.
I’m glad things are working out for your career. We all know how stressful it is to be lacking in feelings of self-efficacy.
Quit making me cry Wil Wheaton.
Hugs and good thoughts continue for
everyone in your family.
Kitties, doggies and all.
Kick butt on CSI, Wil! And enjoy the deserved success!
I’ll keep Sketch my my thoughts. My kitty is at the vet tonight – his liver levels are up and we’re not sure what’s wrong with him. He’s got lymphoma, which we’ve been sucessfully treating him for – but this illness popped up out of nowhere. I won’t know for tomorrow if it’s just an infection or something worse. So I know how you feel. The thought of losing a pet is a really sucky one. I hope it’s not either of our cat’s time to go. It has made me feel better to read about what you’re going through with Sketch and Felix. At least I’m not the only one.
You’re very welcome, Wil. We send you all the mojo and congratulate you and try to buck you up when things are down because we believe in you. And we believe in you because, not only are you a funny and talented fellow, but because you are nice and genuine and it shines through in your writing. Put simply, you rock. Thank you for sharing your life with us. Enjoy the good things. You totally deserve them.
And here’s more mojo and hugs for Sketch. ::mojo/hugs::
Embrace the emotional turmoil! For the sake of your work, of course. Think of it as a free pass to the land of guiltless self-indulgence (until CSI wraps).
😉
Way to Go Will! C-Farking S.I!!!
Best of luck on it, you’ll do awesome!
I hope that Sketch is feeling better, I know what you’re going through, been through it, it’s the worst. But, Sketch knows you love him and are doing everything possible for him.
Tons of mojo to the both of you from Iowa!
Krom
Wil… I am so happy for you. If you don’t update as often as usual, I doubt anyone will be *that* angry. Though I can surely say you will be missed greatly! My friends list will feel empty without you!
Eeee, I’m so excited!! CSI is the best show on TV, and you completely deserve it.
Still sending Sketch very happy kitty mojo.
So excited for CSI. You’ll have to post when it will be on, so I can tape it and forever remember the most awesome episode of the best show. Superlatives aside, I hope Sketch is well. I hope my grandpa is well. He’s in surgery right now down in Newport Beach, while I can only sit here in Michigan waiting for a phone call from my dad. My grandpa asked me yesterday when I’m getting out of college, and I said 2009. Then he said, “Yeah, I’ll be dead by then.” How sad, don’t you think?
Well, I hope the best for Sketch, and for your nerves. You need some sleep, so you can be the best guest on CSI. EVER.
Sending wishes from snowing Michigan to (hopefully) sunny southern California,
Ruth
Wil, definately take the time to enjoy it. We all let too many things that are good pass us by without enjoying them like we should.
Take a minute to soak and bask in the goodness of it, and let old man Prove get a moment of glory 😉
You’ve earned it, now enjoy it.
On a kitty note, I’m glad sketch is doing better, and I think with all the mojo we’re sending his way, he should be havin’ some rip roaring strength real soon.
I’m excited for you, and have my heart laid out for sketch. Psyched for a lot of things.
Sending lots of love to Sketch. I’m guessing that right now, he’s one of the most loved kitties on the planet. Here’s hoping that Fat Cat pulls through.
Glad to see that things are staying in perspective for you, Wil, even through the emotional rollercoaster you’re on right now. You’ve really come a long way in the last few years. From accepting the part that Trek has played in your life, to finding one of the most awesome hotties ever, to building a bridge to your stepsons, to dealing with the drought of good on-screen acting jobs…
Proof that the saying “That which doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger” isn’t just a bunch of hooey, I’d think…
Go get ’em, Wil! Give it your all, and we’ll all be waiting, remotes in hand, for your return (whether triumphant or just short-term) to network TV!
I’m so happy to see the good guy prevail and you need to enjoy it too! Since I’ve started reading your blog, Wil, I look forward to your new posts. My friends who I’ve told about your blog seem to think I am crazy for commenting.. they don’t believe you take time to read everything we say to you but I know they are wrong. And on another note.. about Sketch. Just stay strong for him, friend, because as much as you need him, he needs you too. Sleeping on your chest every night is his way of giving you his kitty love and appreciation. When it is his time to go, I know you will be saddened/devastated- just realize that Sketch’s life has been a happy one. YOU gave him that. Just as he did for you. You really can’t ask for anything more wonderful than that, can you ?
Sending Sketch a lot more positive mojo!!!!
Break a leg tomorrow, Wil!
Sending Sketch a lot more positive mojo!!!!
Break a leg tomorrow, Wil!
ofcourse you should enjoy it. you worked for it.
rock.
The reason I like your blog so much is because it’s not like rading some self hyped celebrity’s personal publicity website. You’re a real person, like myself and my friends, you have a real family with real problems. And instead of simply plugging your upcoming appearance, you gave us a peak into your thoughts and desires and fears.
You’re welcome for the kind comments, but thank you for the honesty.
I am glad you are being smart about dealing with this, and taking things one step at a time.. I know whenever I try to get ahead of myself I usually mess things up… so ya.. your not alone.
Its hard to not try to anticipate the path that an action sets into motion.. but it really is best to just sit back and ride out the wave as it comes.
NO matter what happens… you know we are here for you. well.. at least I am. 😉
I am still sending out lots of healing mojo for that sweet kitty too. I hope his health stabilizes and improves for him soon.
*hugs and mojo*
Neph
Hey Wil,
congrats on the CSI role, can’t wait to see it.
more importantly, lots of prayers and good thoughts for your kitty, we lost one of our two cats last year to kidney failure, and i haven’t cried so hard in years.
Knock’em dead on the set tomorrow!
john
I’m pooling all my good thoughts and energies and sending them Sketch’s way. He sounds like such a sweet kitty and I hope, with everything in me, that he sticks around for a long long time.
And again, YAY YAY YAY on CSI!!
And you’re welcome for being a supporter, it’s nice to see an actor who’s not some puffed up piece of self-important nasty, but someone awesome and real and great–like you! 🙂
And last–I own that Monkeys Are Good People shirt as well as the ‘Nothing is any good if other people like it’. Next I want the ‘I’m a rocker. I rock out.’ and the ‘We prefer to be called Buccaneer-Americans’. That comic strip makes me insanely happy. 🙂
My girlfriend and I have been crossing our fingers for Sketch…
Enjoy this wonderful life – go celebrate, do a little dance! You deserve it!
-Rachel
My girlfriend and I have been crossing our fingers for Sketch…
Enjoy this wonderful life – go celebrate, do a little dance! You deserve it!
-Rachel
My girlfriend and I have been crossing our fingers for Sketch…
Enjoy this wonderful life – go celebrate, do a little dance! You deserve it!
-Rachel
Break a leg Wil! and enjoy it too.
I think Sketch’s sleeping on your chest is both seeking and giving comfort. Animals are so in tune with our emotions – at least that’s the way my lil princess Tabitha is. You’re doing all you can for him, and I think he knows it too. Still sending much mojo for a full recovery.
Sharfa
As an actor you gotta know deep down this is just a job, and at the end of it, all the hype in the world doesn’t mean dick, it just goes back to the same thing, putting yourself out there and seeing what comes of it.
Enjoy this ride while it lasts, but know that your life and the things that really mean something are still there outside the machine.
Hope your cat is doing better, it’s so very hard to watch a beloved companion go through this sort of thing.
I, like so many others, are pulling for you, if for not other reason, you have had the balls to show the world that you are just like all of us. A geek trying to make his way through this existence and have some understanding of what the heck is happening to him.
It is good that you have to jump right in to work…If you sat around and thought it over… then you might realize…HOLY CRAP YOU’RE ON CSI!!
Heather
I’ve never commented here before, even though I’ve been reading your blog for years. I just wanted to say that there are probably a lot of people like me, doubling or tripling the number of people that you think are patting your virtual back in cyberspace. Just think! How many of us there must be!!
It is about damn time something awesome happened to someone who deserved it.
You’re good people, Wil. And you just happen to be very talented! It’s hard not to believe in that combination and expect good fortune to come your way. 🙂
I remember when my Pot Pie had her first and only litter of kitties — she wanted to have them right on my lap! It’s really something when you have a connection like that with your pet. I was a proud momma, and really touched when she came to me for comfort and security. Pets don’t “fake it”, and there’s something incredibly humbling about being loved like that. Maybe all the love you and your family give him in return will help him fight through it.