Saturday night, Anne and I went to a screening of a friend’s new movie, called Locked (it’s fantastic; a tight, clever, surprising thriller that I think is about late stage capitalism if you squint). While we were waiting to go in, we ran into one of our neighbors, and we were having the talk you have with neighbors who you’re friendly with, who you like, but who you don’t really know all that well. They’re kind people, though, and I always enjoy chatting with them.
As we were talking, I noticed someone over my neighbor’s shoulder was looking at me. I have seen this look innumerable times in my life from someone who knows my work, and is just confirming in their mental reference library that the guy in the Sisters of Mercy T-shirt is the same guy they saw on their TV.
I could have given him the “yep, it’s me” nod that I have watched my famous friends do for years, but that just felt weirdly uncomfortable in the moment so I didn’t let him know that I knew that he was in the process of knowing. I put my focus and attention on my neighbor and listened to him.
That’s when this guy closed the distance between us in a couple of strides, looked me square in the face and said, “WIL WHEATON! I CAN’T WAIT FOR YOUR PODCAST!” Then he disappeared into the crowd.
I just about fell over. As long as I can remember, people have been stopping me to tell me something about Stand By Me, or Star Trek, or Big Bang Theory. That’s awesome. I’m grateful that audiences enjoy and remember the work I have done for other people. It’s genuinely wonderful to know that. But this is the first time — ever — someone has come up to me out of a crowd and expressed excitement about a little project I created entirely on my own, paid for out of my pocket, and made precisely the way I wanted to make it, with the help of some extremely talented people. This didn’t even happen with Tabletop until we were deep into the second season.
It’s Storytime with Wil Wheaton is going to start hitting podcast apps in about 15 hours. It’s bracing that it’s actually here. I started working on this almost two years ago. More than once along the way, I ran into an obstacle that threatened to end it before it even began. More than once, the part of me that keeps Carrie’s Mom alive in my head yelled at me, “THEY’RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT YOU!”* More than once, the fear of what may go wrong threatened to overwhelm and drown the excitement for what could go right.
But something inside of me kept telling me that this was a good idea. This was something that absolutely had an audience, if only I could find it.
This guy outside the AMC in Burbank (no, not that one, the other one) — a young guy, too! He couldn’t have been 30! — gave me this gift he didn’t even know he was giving me. His enthusiasm hit me like a super stimpack, and I let myself feel it.
That’s a huge thing for me, y’all. Growing up in a house where I was a target for the bully I had instead of a father taught me to keep everything that mattered to me as close to my heart and as far away from him and his mocking cruelty as possible. If I ever expressed joy or pride about something I did, he took it away from me and replaced it with humiliation. My brother frequently joined in on the fun while our mother sat quietly and let it happen. It wasn’t great.
Well … fuck that guy (disdainful). Fuck all of them, actually (celebratory). I’m so proud of myself and so excited for this thing I worked so hard to create. Of course I’m terrified! Of course I’m so nervous I can’t really eat! But that’s because I know I made something I feel good about, and I just really hope enough people respond to it to allow me to do more. I’m not worried that they’re all gonna laugh at me (and, for the record, Wil, that’s never happened so maybe you can stop doing that to yourself); I’m hopeful that they all find out about this thing I think they’re gonna love.
I know that a lot of you reading this have been with me for 25 years or so (holy shit can you believe that? Let’s take a moment to feel old, and to celebrate our defiant survival**!) with a front row seat to all the ups and downs, all the times things seemed bleak and all the times I got to celebrate something wonderful.
I had and have the courage and the drive to make this because I know that. I know that you all are there, because you’ve always been there, just beyond the glare of the footlights. I can’t always see you, but I can feel the energy out there in the darkness. I hear your laughter and applause. I can feel when something I make, because I thought it would be fun, turns out to be something you enjoyed or even loved.
I really believe that It’s Storytime with Wil Wheaton is one of those things, and by this time tomorrow, we will find out if I’m right, and I will get to make more seasons.
I will absolutely need your help to make that happen. If you listen and you enjoy it, please rate and review, like and subscribe, and above all: tell your friends who you think will also like it that they (and you)can subscribe now at
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Thanks, everyone, for all the support you’ve shared with me for a quarter of a century (oh my god i am so old) and for making it possible for me to take a shot at finally having my dream job.
*If you get this reference, you should schedule your colonoscopy.
**If your survival has not been defiant, please substitute your appropriate experience. Mine has been all kinds of defiant.
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I, too, would like to say:
WIL WHEATON! I CAN’T WAIT FOR YOUR PODCAST!
Always a supporter, so pleased to hear about your podcast. Stay vulnerable, open & transparent- it’s our only one life, so let’s be real & enjoy the adventure. You give me courage to live well!
I love your narrations and this is just amazing. Thank you for what you do!!!
I hope there will come a time, soon, when your evil, spiritually debauched father becomes not even a whisper taking up space in your head, like mine has. The pain comes in never having had a real father, a loving father, not that my monster, or yours, was what we got.
That said, Wil, YOU are all you will ever need. You just didn’t know that as a kid. Neither did I. You have done more, excelled more, with your hard work, your work ethic, than anyone could have thought with that rough start in life. YOU are the real article.
I am thrilled for you and all you’ve achieved, what you’re creating now, what you will create in the future. I can’t wait to listen to this first Podcast.
FWIW, I just listened to the first episode and really liked it. It’s been a long time since I just listened to someone tell me a story. There’s something so…vital about it. Even though I knew nothing about the story in question, I got excited as you started because, well, it was going to be a story. I have subscribed and will rate the show. Very well done, very engaging. I look forward to more stories in the future. Stories are what we’re about. It’s central to the human condition. And it’s also something that’s too easy to forget. Thank you.
What a beautiful gift for us all! Your voice + the story’s words pulled me into its world. I made sure to rate, review, and subscribe.
I, too, am insanely excited for your podcast and, for the record, if I’m ever lucky enough to see you in person, I’m going to tell you how much your blog has meant to me over the years. As much as I appreciate your other work, it’s your writing that sticks with me. Congrats!!
I just listened to the first episode, and holy crap, Wil. It’s SO GOOD. I don’t do great with novel-length audiobooks, which means that I haven’t heard much of your narration work before now. Fun fact, you’re awesome at it.
Great story, great narration, great production – sincerely, this strikes me as a fantastic way to kick off this project, and I hope you’re as excited and proud of it today as you were leading up to the release. I can’t wait for the next installment!
Sat listening to rock paper scissors now!
Lovin it! Thanks Wil you have done amazing job
There are much so many of us hiding in the shadows and the brights throughout time sneakily working to shift the winds to make world and universe a better place… : )
But probably the Traveler knows all about that!
I was elated to read this and to know I made such a wonderful impact on someone I admire. I too know what it’s like to put yourself out there creatively and by your own means, and totally understand how sincere positive feedback can give one more wind beneath our flaping wings.
Okee, back to my shadow now.