numb

About forty minutes after I landed back in Vegas yesterday morning, my kitty Sketch had a heart attack. He was in “His Spot” on my bedroom floor, and Anne held him while he died.
He looked fine when I left, so I didn’t even scratch his chest like I always do. I just told him, “I love you, Fat Boy. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Anne said that it happened so fast, it was over before she had a chance to freak out.
I had to stay in Vegas and write about the final table of the championship, so my psyche just sort of put me into shock until I got home this afternoon. Since I walked into my house, I’ve been moving between the hysterical sobbing and the weird numbness.
I think I’m going to take a few days off, meet my deadlines, and cry a whole, whole bunch.

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  1. I can only say what has already been said here, but I think it bears repeating. I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family have been bearing some hard sorrows lately and my thoughts are with you all once again. Take your time to grieve and let us know if there is anything we can do to help.

  3. I’m really sorry to hear that, Wil. I know you think about the things you should have said and done, but Sketch knew he was loved. What a rough welcome home.

  5. I’m so sorry Wil. I can’t say anhything that’s not already been said. My heart aches for you and your family tonight. **hugs**
    –Lori

  7. oh wil, i’m so sorry. what a horrible loss. i’ll be praying for you and the fam tonight. i know you could use them. be well, friend.

  9. Will-
    There are not words sufficient for loss like this. I still get sad thinking about our cat who got into a lilly and suffered renal faliure as a result. I hope that you and Anne and your family are all doing okay.
    RIP Sketch…

  12. Aw geez, the Bear and now Sketch, I can only imagine what a time you and Anne and the boys are having right now, missing them. Much e-hugs and mojo to you all.

  14. My husband and I had this happen to us a few years ago. It’s heartbreaking, and I’m so very sorry you’ve had this experience..
    **hug**

  15. It’s frustrating when there are no words, yet words are all we can use in this particular medium. I can only repeat what’s already been said, and probably more eloquently than I can say it… my deepest, heartfelt sympathy goes out to you and your family. I have been there and I understand, as have many of the others here. Thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

  16. Oh no. Oh, Wil, I’m so sorry. I know losing a pet is one of my worst fears, and to have gone through it twice in such quick succession must be torture for you. My sympathies and my thoughts go with you and yours.

  17. I’m sorry, kid.
    I have to wonder if maybe Sketch knew you couldn’t handle another goodbye like Felix’s. I know that sounds silly, especially coming from a vet tech. But I still wonder.
    Personally, I think “love you, see you tomorrow” is a pretty fitting way to part. No tears, just love and a promise to meet again…even if tomorrow’s a long time coming.

  21. Wil, I am so damn sorry to hear about both of your feline family members. We are currently bottle feeding a trio of abandoned kittens…and we lost the tiniest one a few days ago. Even though I’d only known the runt-baby for three days, I cried all day.
    I can’t imagine losing my oldest cat, Wayne. I understand the heartbreak and the sorrow and wish the best for both you and your family.
    There’s nothing like having the love of a special cat in your life…nothing.
    Hang in there and know that both of your cats were certainly aware of how much you and your family loved them.
    Sending good thoughts your way from SC…
    Claudia

  22. My supreme condolences. Two good little friends in so short a time, you must be a total wreck. Remember the fun and happy times as much as you can, but above all remember that you gave them a great home and lots of love. I hope something good comes to you soon, one person can’t be expected to bear all this pain without some good to help heal.

  23. FWIW, my little guy, Rhett Butler, passed on in January. He was just going on 20, I got him in 1985. He was the only cat I ever had. Nothing helped at all, until one day I couldn’t take it anymore. I emailed all of my dearest friends and asked them to send me a pic of their pet. The pics flooded in immediately, and I don’t know why, but somehow it just made it bearable. Seeing all of their little ones made me remember the love and good stuff, and gave me hope that I would find a way to be ok. When it hurts now, I look at the pictures again. I don’t know if that would help you, but it made me be not out of my mind anymore. Good luck, and my heart goes out to you. Tracy

  24. Wil,
    My deepest sympathy to you, Anne and the kids. Sketch’s and Felix’s memories will last in your home.
    Take care.
    Ting

  26. (((( hugs ))))
    I am so sorry to hear that you’ve lost your cat. I don’t know what I’d do if I lost either of my purrbabies. I’m sending you love and positive vibes, Wil.

  27. Wil,
    I am so, so, sorry about Sketch. I know that does not help a bit. I wish I could find words to express my sorrow for you and your family. In times like these there are none. I will pray for all of you and do whatever I can to help. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. You all are in my prayers and thoughts!

  28. Take care Wil. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family now.
    I know Bear and Sketch are watching you now and you and Anne will see them again one day.
    Do whatever you need to get through these very hard days.

  29. My condolences, Wil.
    Sorry, no hug from me.
    On the bright side, now you have a good reason to pardon to a condemned kitten from the shelter.

  30. My condolences to you and your family. It’s so hard losing a pet…I’ve lost two of my dogs, and it’s still difficult sometimes. Thoughts and prayers are with you.

  33. wow, wil, i cant even begin to imagine the total heart ache your whole family much have between felix and sketch. All i can do is add another copy of “i’m sorry” to the chorus already.

  34. God Wil, that’s too many hits in far too short a time period. I’m so sorry. Do what you have to do and may God be with you in this time.
    I’ll keep a good thought for you.

  35. I’m so sorry to hear it. At least he’s with Bear. I think of your kitties whenever Cody or Midnight rubs against my leg or jumps on my lap.

  36. You’re shell-shocked. Holy crap, Wil, anyone would be. Just stay strong and love everyone in your family as much as you can.
    Again, your ability to feel loss like this speaks volumes about the remarkable man you are. Small words and small consolation, but it’s true. It’s what also makes you a great writer.
    Get it out on paper, all of it. Do it now do you can see the words and immortalize your friend.

  38. Wil….
    I am so sorry for your loss, on the other hand, at least it was quick for poor little Sketch. At least you didn’t have to take him to the vet as you did for Felix. I know it is nice to say ‘good bye’ to your pets, but for me, far better that the end is quick.
    I am glad though, you have family around you to provide support.

  39. I am so sorry, Wil. Through your ups and downs with Sketch and Felix, I have cried with you, and shared your hope and happiness when they were doing better. I have lost kitties, too, and know the kind of heartbreak you are going through. They were lucky kitties to have been loved so much, and you were the best of owners to have done everything you could to help them when they needed you. You’re in my thoughts now, Sweetie.
    Nikki

  41. I’m sorry too.
    Defeat may serve as well as victory
    To shake the soul and let the glory out.
    When the great oak is straining in the wind,
    The boughs drink in new beauty and the trunk
    Sends down a deeper root on the windward side.
    Only the soul that knows the mighty grief
    Can know the mighty rapture, Sorrows come
    To stretch out spaces in the heart for joy.
    –Edwin Marham

  43. I’m so sad for you Wil. Going through it once is bad enough. I’m sure twice is devastating. Try to rest easy knowing you made his life good. That’s a pretty special gift to give to an animal.

  44. Oh no Wil. I’m so sorry to hear that. You have to remember that you were there for Sketch when he needed you. It’s what you do when your friends are still alive that counts. He didn’t pass on alone, Anne was with him. How many of us wish we could die in the company of someone who loves us unconditionally? When you have to go, that’s an awesome way to do it. The Bear is not alone anymore.
    My prayers will be with you and your family.

  45. That sucks, Wil. I’m sorry to hear it.
    Take care of yourself and the family. You know there are thousands of monkies out here sending you good will.

  46. my cat, Cow, sends her kitty mojo your way. (yes, i named her Cow)
    take it easy for a few days. get out of the house too. that really helped me when my dog died, because everywhere i turned, something else reminded me of her. it gets better in time.

  49. O Bubastis, Goddess of the Nile, pray keep watch for a little gray tabby Maine Coon cat named Sketch, who never scratched or bit without just cause, who was loved by his people, Will, Anne, Nolan, and Ryan, and who returned that love in full measure. Bear him forthwith to the Eternal Catnip Fields, where he may enjoy a well-deserved rest forevermore.
    (That sucks big time, Wil. Here I was wishing for luck for you in the tournament…and all the while, Sketch’s luck had finally run out. I keep offering the prayer to help you feel better, inadequate gesture though it may be…)

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