“The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things like too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller, but for want of an understanding ear.” -The Body, Stephen King.
Last night, while watching TV with Anne, my phone buzzed and buzzed and buzzed. I usually ignore it when we’re watching something, but when it blows up like that, it’s rarely good news. I picked it up and saw a message from Jerry to Corey and me. While I was reading it, news alerts popped up faster than I could swipe them away. More text messages arrived. Unknown Numbers began to call. I told Anne we needed to pause the show; something terrible has happened.
It hasn’t even been twelve hours, but all three of us have been overwhelmed with requests from media for comment and I’m mostly writing this now so they’ll leave me alone. I won’t speak for anyone else, but I am still processing and coming to grips with a tragic, senseless, devastating loss. I’m doing my best. I have all these words, and I am doing my best to put them into some kind of order, but the loss and sadness and anger at the senselessness of it all is getting in the way.
I don’t want to write this. I don’t want to talk about myself. I just want and need to process the shock and grieve the loss. But I don’t want anyone to speak for me, so I will do my best to tell you about the man I knew, and what he meant to me when I knew him. I reserve the right to edit or even delete this post.
Generation X grew up with Rob. We watched him on All in the Family when we were little, and as we came of age, he made movies about our lives as we were living them: movies about growing up, falling in and out of love, about seeing the goodness that exists inside every single person, if only they are open to it. He told us stories about the strength of the human spirit, and he made us laugh. Oh, how he made us laugh. The world knows Rob as a generational talent, a storyteller and humanitarian activist who made a difference with his art, his voice, and his influence. I knew that man, but I also knew a man who treated me with more kindness, care, and love than my own father ever did. And it is the loss of that man that is piercing my heart right now.
I only really knew Rob Reiner for one summer, in 1985, when we made Stand By Me. We only saw each other a handful of times in the last 40 years, and outside of those rare meetings, we only spoke a couple of times. Even though I haven’t spoken to him in years, I will miss him forever.
When I was turning 13, and realizing that my own father didn’t care about me, that my mother didn’t see me as a son, but as a thing she could put to work, Rob Reiner made me feel loved, valued, seen, and respected. He made sure I knew that I was important to him and his movie. He made sure I knew that he saw every actor he could for my role, and he chose me because he saw so much of Gordie in me. Back then, I didn’t know what that meant, only that he made me feel like I was enough.
When we shot the scene with Gordie and River at the body, he talked with me about how his own dad made him feel, created a safe place for me to feel all of Gordie’s (and my) emotions, and turn that into a performance that still resonates with audiences. In a way, in that movie, I was him and he was me and we were both Gordie LaChance. I was hoping that we would see each other next year, at something celebrating Stand By Me turning 40, so I could see him and properly thank him for everything he gave me — in my career, sure (it only exists because of Rob), but in my life, as well. If Rob hadn’t shown me unconditional affection and approval, I wouldn’t have known what I was missing at home. He was a big part of my coming of age in that way, too.
Ironically, tragically, I have felt closer to Rob in the last week or so than I have in a decade, because I essentially spent a weekend with the Rob I knew in 1985 when Jerry and Corey and I spent the weekend together, watching Stand By Me with a few thousand people who love this film the way we do. We spent entire days together in a tour bus, catching up on 40 years of life and work, and fondly remembering that one magical summer we spent together, that will tie us to each other for the rest of our lives. We talked extensively about how much we all loved Rob, and how much he loved us. We talked about how important it was to him that we got to be kids when we weren’t at work, how he organized screenings of Goonies and Explorers for all of us to watch together, how he made sure we all got to play.
Rob was a good person who put great art into the world, who made a positive difference in more lives than any of us can imagine. The world is a better place thanks to his activism and the way he chose to use all of his privilege and influence.
Rest in peace Rob and Michele. May their memories be a blessing.
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So very sorry. Thank you so much for sharing your heart, Wil.
A beautiful tribute, Wil. You are clearly carrying and sharing the torch of his compassionate love in your heart and soul.
I’m still reeling from this horrific news, Wil. I can’t imagine how it must feel for you and everyone else who actually knew Rob and Michele.
Sending love to you, Corey and Jerry. This is a lovely tribute to Rob and how he helped you. I watched Stand By Me last night in tribute to Rob. It’s always been my favourite film of his.
RIP Rob and Michele. May their memories be a blessing. All love and strength to their family and friends.
My knowledge of the english language is not good enough to write about how I feel. Stand By Me is one important part of my life. Harry and Sally is THE rom-com. Rob left a huge mark in the entertainment industry. And his work hit me. Spinal Tap, which is not as big in Germany as it is in the US is probably the best point of view at the music industry and as a Musician myself, even this movie left its traces in my brain.
And now? When I read, Rob is dead, I thought: “oh, that’s sad” but that was before I knew the surroundings of his death.
I was devastated. Still am.
I’m so sorry for your loss, Wil. It’s heartbreaking and senseless and sudden, and that makes the wound deeper, the hurt worse. I’m 10 years younger than you but my mama bear instincts make me want to reach through the phone and hug you. Have a hot chocolate and allow yourself to grieve, and don’t let anyone tell you how that is supposed to look or how long you are allowed to do so. Grief is personal. Thinking of you 💜
My condolences to you, Wil, and all the other people whose lives were touched by everything the couple touched, whether it be Meathead, a body, Harry and Sally, as you wish……
Beautiful and touching essay. As others have noted – please take the time you need to heal.
My heart goes out to you, and to the Reiner family. I’m gutted by this, and I never met him, never had the chance to know him other than in the public eye. I’m so sorry for your loss. I can tell by what you’ve written just how much he meant to you, and I truly believe you meant as much to him. I’ve only read the best things about Rob and Michele, and that makes me absolutely know how wonderful they both were.
I’m sorry for your heartbreaking loss. Thanks for taking the time to share your experience.
You were one of the first folks I thought of when I learned this terrible sadness.
I read you because of your depth of understanding and compassion and gift of clarity speaking about your childhood.
I realize I connected the path to your adult self in part to the loving human who directed your young selves.
Thank you for your words (again).
Our lives are better for his art that encompassed his goodness.
My thoughts are with you and all who share in this grief.
Well said Wil. When I heard the news Sunday night, it was like a punch to the gut. I loved him for his acting and directing such wonderful and timeless movies. Stand By Me has so much deep meaning for me. I was going through a huge loss the first time I saw it 38 years ago. The movie helped me through one of the hardest parts of my life and remains today as my all time favorite movie ever. There will never, ever be another Rob Reiner. I, for one, will miss him very much. Thank you Wil for your message.
I am so sorry for your loss, Rob and Michele’s loved ones’ loss, and all our loss. Thank you for sharing your deepest feelings and memories about what Rob meant to you.
I’m so sorry, Wil. The grief comes and goes in waves, and reading your thoughts definitely helped me, if nothing else, so I’m sure many others are going to find solace in your words — they’re a beacon that lets us know that we are not alone. Rob and Michele’s work has meant so much to so many, and will resonate long after we’re all gone, if that’s any consolation. In fact, I predict that in time, maybe sooner than we think, we will be talking about Rob Reiner like we talk about Orson Welles, because he has absolutely earned that kind of praise. Sending my condolences to you, yours, and everyone else who knew and loved them. There just isn’t enough time in the world for some people.
Standing in mourning with you. Such a terrible loss of such a beautiful human. You are correct. Gen X grew up seeing Rob’s works and we are better for it.
I can’t fathom how shattering the devastation of the Reiners’ deaths are to you, but I offer my sorrow in sympathy and support.
Thanks for this, Wil. I am so so sorry for your loss. For all of our loss, but especially, just now, for yours and Corey’s and Jerry’s.
I’ve been thinking of you and how you were going to process this news since i heard yesterday. My thoughts and prayers are with everyone who knew and loved them. They seem like an example of how we should all live.
Well put…I am glad beyond words that he was there for you when those who should have been were not. Rob Reiner was a gift to humanity, and so many will mourn his loss.
You were one of the first folks I thought of when I learned this terrible sadness.
I read you because of your depth of understanding and compassion and gift of clarity speaking about your childhood.
I realize I connected the path to your adult self in part to the loving human who directed your young selves.
Thank you for your words (again).
Our lives are better for his art that encompassed his goodness.
My thoughts are with you and all who share in this grief.
So very sorry for your, and the family’s, loss.
HUGS!
Sending love ❤️
The very first film that I thought after hearing the tragic event that happened to Rob Reiner (and his wife, Michelle) was “Stand By Me”, and I thought of you, Wil. I remember getting a DVD copy of the film and let you signed it at one of the Star Trek conventions.
I am very sorry for your loss. I am very sorry for the world’s loss of this amazing man who championed LGBTQ+ rights and rights for everyone.
I, like so many here, thought of you right away, and I’m so sorry for you loss. I grieve with thee. Those words seem like not enough, but they’re all I have. Take all the time you need. Sending my love, wabbit
When I read the news, my first thought was about you, Jerry, and Corey on that tour bus. I didn’t know if you were still on it. I’m so sorry. I read what Corey wrote. You know I grew up without a father. The care and attention I received from father figures is precious to me and I think I understand how deep this loss is for all you.
so many of us grew up with him in our lives. I met him on the subway once – a mensch. He made me feel special in about 3 minutes.
Thought of you as soon as I heard. So very sorry for your loss Wil, and the loss felt by countless others across the globe.
Thank you for putting into words what so few of us could.
Sending love
Horrific. I’m so sorry for your loss.
This was beautiful Will. I’m so sorry for your loss. This one hurts really bad. He will always be a legend.
You, Corey and Jerry were the first people I thought about when I heard the news, knowing you were just at a screening of Stand By Me. I wondered if Rob had been there, or sent a message. I can’t imagine the pain you must feel due to this senseless loss, but thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts with us.
I can’t imagine just how badly you have been hurt. His was a beautiful light in this dark world. May you find a way to show how he strengthened yours.
I saw STAND BY ME a month or so before it played in theatres. I loved it and thought it would be a classic. At the time I worked for Columbia Pictures in New York City and worked on the local distribution of STAND BY ME also as part of my job. Since then this has become my favorite movie of all time and everyone who knows me knows this. I have seen it over 100 times. The last time being yesterday. As Stephen King said at the time this is the best adaption of any of his writings. I read the short story THE BODY before seeing the movie and it sure was true to the his writing. This was all because of Rob Reiner. He also said this was his favorite movie that he directed. He was truly one of a kind.
Wil, I’m so sorry. Rob Reiner and Michelle were such big-hearted people. I’ll be sure to watch his movies and Stand By Me again in their honor!
(I submitted a comment on Monday which never appeared. Please delete any duplicates)
I’ve been crying off and on since Sunday when the clumsy/confusing news was breaking. I thought “Surely not”, whispering no, no, no to myself at the random timing of it, because it is so obvious we were and have been, nestled into a cocoon of warmth, compassion and artistic excellence that felt like home, that Rob Reiner engendered for decades. He understood the human condition and storytelling so well – it brought us together as a human family. To have to experience this sudden, hideous wound ripping us out of that cocoon of familiarity and love has hit us like the gunshot heard around the world and is unfair, well, unfair is pathetically weak.
Rob Reiner was all our surrogate fathers, sons, brothers, boyfriends we wanted to have, because HE had an excellent father, just as Jerry O’Connell said in an early morning interview today: “Rob Reiner gave me everything. I feel like a parent has passed.”
Bless you, Wil. You didn’t have to write this blog, you owe us nothing, but I’m glad you expressed yourself.
Sending light and love from Finland. Blessed be….
I have been thinking of you since I heard. May you be surrounded by comfort in this time of terrible loss. May Rob and Michelle Singer Reiner’s memories be for a blessing.
Wil, we are holding space in our hearts for you, sending love and healing. Thank you, as always, for sharing your most vulnerable self with us.
Rest In Peace Rob Reiner & Michele Singer Reiner🕊🕯
I hope we all find peace…whatever that represents. I’m so tired.
When I heard the news, I immediately thought of this post of yours from 2008:
https://wilwheaton.net/2008/06/turns-out-this/
and the ‘No Ace, just you’ bit of acting lore Rob taught you. That story has apparently stuck in my head for almost 20 years! He was a great man.
Hugs to your heart, Wil.