I’ve been open and unashamed about my mental health struggles and triumphs, always willing to talk about my CPTSD, always willing to supportively listen when someone chooses to share their experience with me.
I make this choice every day, because I am doing my best to be the person I need in the world. I need people who are kind and compassionate, who are willing to share their struggles and victories in a way that validates my own experiences. I make this choice so that maybe I can be the person I need, for someone I will never meet, the way people like Jenny Lawson, or Gabe and Tycho from Penny Arcade were for me, when I was beginning my healing journey.
It’s in that spirit that I’m writing today. This is sort of a general update on how that journey is going, and a look at where I am, with some thoughts on how I got here.
So, broadly and generally speaking, I’m doing great! I mean, everything in the whole world is terrible, but the little bit of reality that’s being rendered around me at any given moment is pretty great. I’m healthy and safe, my family is healthy and safe, I have all the work I need, I have time and space for activities.
But … the chaos, cruelty, rage, and unpredictability coming out of the White House is identical to what I experienced growing up1 and holy shit has that activated a lot of stuff for my body to remember.
For the two weeks or so that preceded Sunday, I woke up to intense anxiety every morning, before I was even fully awake and aware of anything. It was really unpleasant, but at least I knew that it was nervous system dysregulation2, and I have a lot of skills I can use to help my nervous system get back into a parasympathetic, resting, state. I’m grateful that I know what to do, but my god did I wish I didn’t have to do it every morning at the start of my day.3
Then, Sunday, I woke up like Frodo in Rivendell, and I have, every morning since. I don’t feel tight and clenched in my chest. I haven’t sweat through my pajamas and woken up shivering. I have had peace and warmth and gentle calm.
And the thing is, I didn’t know when this would happen, but I knew that it would. This sort of nervous system freakout thing tends to happen when I’ve been working hard to reprocess one or more specific traumas, and I’m really close to closing a circle on my imaginary trauma healing watch. It’s like my body doesn’t realize, yet, that I’m safe and I’m now, and it needs to be gently coaxed out of dysregulation.
I’ve closed a few metaphorical circles over the years since I started EMDR and IFS therapy, and I have had some version of this experience each time. When it does, I imagine a drawing of my body, like from one of those old Disney SCIENCE IS FUN cartoons. In some places, there is fear and anxiety.4 In others, confusion5. Depending on how old I am in the drawing, there’s anger and resentment6. And all around these memories, connected to each of them, is sadness and loss. Over time, as I’ve worked so hard to heal from the abuse of my emotionally immature, toxic parents, those pieces I see in the drawing have faded away, eventually joining together in lingering loss and sadness.
And honestly, I’m okay with that. It’s okay to feel sad. It’s okay to acknowledge the loss. I hasten to clarify that this took literal years of work. When I first began to see all the sadness, it was like looking into infinity. When I first felt the enormity and profundity of the loss, it was free falling into an abyss. There were a lot of stops and starts as I learned how to regulate it, how to reprocess it in a way that wasn’t overwhelming.
Again, not easy. Again, years. Again, worth it.
Now, listen, I am not a doctor and I have no professional experience or education. I’m just sharing my experience. But if you see something familiar, I encourage you to look into what nervous system dysregulation is, and learn some of the techniques we use to calm our bodies down when they aren’t on the same page as our mind, our soul, our Self.
A few resources I value include
- Dr. Nicole LePera, the Holistic Psychologist
- The book The Body Keeps The Score
- The book Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents
- The YouTube channel Therapy in a Nutshell
- EFT Tapping. This is the weirdest thing ever. When I first heard about it, I thought it was bullshit. I don’t know why or how it works, but it’s been PROFOUND for me in many cases. YouTube has some good follow-along guides, but a fuckton of grifter wellness woo woo bullshit. Just use good judgment and common sense. Like, you aren’t tapping your way to riches, guys.
There’s a somatic component to emotional healing and trauma recovery that I didn’t expect. It’s only recently that my emotional self and my physical self have started to work in harmony, and that wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t know that the somatic part existed. It’s taken such a long time, and though the work is ongoing, I hope that someone who needs to know that they aren’t alone sees this. I hope this helps on your own healing journey.
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- My father’s rage, my mother’s fear, and the tension between them was so thick in the air, it was suffocating. I never knew what was coming down the hallway, or through the front door. Would dad be mean to me, or would he just ignore me? Would mom and dad fight so ferociously that it ends with my mom kicking another hole in another cabinet? We’re running out of towels to hang over the ones that are already there. I’m going to put headphones on and turn them up as loud as they can go because that’s the only way to escape the yelling and arguing that vibrates through the walls into my bedroom. ↩︎
- For decades, I had panic attacks every night when I was falling asleep. More often than not, I had night terrors, these vaguely remembered nightmares that had no images or other senses associated with them, just pure terror. When it was really bad, they happened more than once a night and the only reason I stayed asleep was after I’d cried myself to sleep in exhaustion. Trying to escape them was a big part of my alcohol abuse. I’m so grateful that doesn’t happen anymore. ↩︎
- And it still kind of lingered with me throughout the day, you know? It was a lot. ↩︎
- Oh, imagine that Professor Duck guy, giving a lecture at a chalkboard. ↩︎
- Why is he so mean to me? Why won’t she just let me be a kid? Why won’t they love me like they love my brother and sister? ↩︎
- Or, there was. The healing ring I am most proud of closing, the one that was the key to closing so many others, was this one. When I realized that my anger was no longer a shield that protected me, but something else entirely that only caused me pain, it was astonishingly easy to find it, coax it out, validate it, and send it on its way. There isn’t any anger in my drawing now. Where it used to be is something that is almost indifference. ↩︎
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Thank you for sharing both your experiences and the resources.
Thank you for being so open about your healing journey. As a fellow sufferer of C-PTSD, your posts are invaluable, particularly on days like today where I’m struggling a bit more. Like you, most of my days are good ones these days, but this administration has been reminding me so much of childhood, which makes some days hard. Thank you for reminding me that these things come in cycles. It also helps me remember to use the various tools I have in my tool box of coping skills. So thank you for sharing and thank you for being you.
Thank you for sharing that with us, Wil. I allow myself healthy crying sessions, something I utterly refused to do as a younger man. It’s helped me immeasurably. Glad to see your healing is also happening. 🖖
Thanks for the links. I’m not having panic attacks, yet anyway. But i have so much anger and constant clenched jaw. I feel so disillusioned by what has happened to the strides and progress that I guess I thought permanent.
Thank you for your bravery in being vulnerable to share your journey with us…. There’s do many out there quietly maybe even shamefully battling these same things. To speak it takes away its power. Thank you.
I recommend The Body Keeps the Score to everybody who will listen. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable! I know I certainly appreciate reading about your thought process and seeing you thrive after all you’ve experienced. 💖
I’ve always admired your willingness to be vulnerable to your readers. You give hope where it may have been missing. I’ve had EMDR therapy and it’s incredibly intense but very effective. I’m glad you’ve worked with someone who knows what they’re doing because it can have an adverse effect if done with no insight or talent. I hope your growth continues for the rest of your life – we’re never done, or a finished product. There’s always more work. But when you begin to enjoy the fruits of your labor, that’s when life can be sweet. Hugs
No matter what the Angry Orange or his minions do, there IS love in the world. And you are one of the many who raise the banner proclaiming it. I hope you TRULY know all that love comes back to you, too. As a single mom of a son, I would give so much to go back in time just to give you a hug and an ear and the attention you needed and deserved. At the risk of sounding presumptuous, I am so proud of you and all that you’ve done since I first saw you in Stand By Me. (Yes, in a theater. Yes, I just dated myself. 😉 You’re an amazing man, Wil Wheaton. Even if you do ruin relationships just to win a bowling tournament. ;-D
As always, you, sir, are an inspiration. It never fails that when I am struggling with my own past traumas that you post something that assures me I’m not alone. It’s hard for me to allow myself to go into details on the interwebs, but, I see you, and I feel seen nonetheless.
Thank you, I appreciate you.
Every time you post something like this, I just want to say thank you. Having an example of someone going through their own mental health concerns and being open and unapologetically open about it makes it just a little easier to deal with my own.
I’m currently in a PHP program because of my struggles and trauma, learning about DBT and CPT and so many other acronyms and ways of working through it.
So, thank you. I wish you peace.
Can you be proud of someone you don’t know and doesn’t know you? If so, I am proud of your journey and success. If not, I am impressed with it
I would like to also suggest DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) for those with bipolar disorder or a few other brain chemical influenced disorders. The right chemical cocktail and DBT literally saved my wife’s life and our marriage. She still has bad days, and the cocktail has some negative side effects including loss of her “muse” (she was an artist, but is not feeling it) and libido, but she no longer wants to die every day, and has some new goals in her life, and can enjoy what life does bring her. Along with treatment for my own anxiety and depression, I can say that we are now comfortable in our life, and looking forward to the adventure of retirement in a few years.
I also live with C-PTS, and have been struggling with (waves hand around wildly) ALL THIS as well. (And I don’t even live in your country – I can’t imagine how I’d be with my life that directly impacted.) The trick, it seems, is to remember that we now have those tools to calm our nervous systems… and remember to use them in the moment. Some days are better than others, but we just keep doing our best to come back to centre. Thanks, as always, for speaking up – as I know you know, you’re doing so much to help those who can’t just yet.
Thanks for sharing this. I struggle with CPTSD also. This is helpful.
Thank you for posting this. Thank you for sharing parts of your journey. It’s long fight and a hard fight and it helps so much to know that I’m not the only one dealing with similar things. For so long I was sure that no one had ever had to deal with what I was having to deal with (self-absorbed I know) and one of the things that helped most back in the darkest days was finding people who could empathize and tell me that they knew what I was going through.
I’m happy for you that the circles are closing, that the bad stuff is being left in the past. That’s huge and that’s wonderful and that’s testament to your hard work and endless strength in refusing to let the bad things dictate any more of your life.
PS: The Body Keeps the Score was a total game changer for me too.
I second The Holistic Psychologist on the tubes. Not only are her emotionally immature parent videos spot on but her body hacks do seem to work. I had heard that tapping was not complete bullshit, so I’m interested in looking at the video you link above. I feel you, man. Just got a cortisol dump from dealing with my own parent, so I think I’ll go take a look at those.
Thank you so much for writing this and sharing everything, especially what’s working for you. My anxiety and depression got a lot worse after the pandemic started, and even though I’m on better medications now and have been working with my therapist, I still have at least low-level anxiety most days, thanks to gestures at the entire planet. Especially having a constantly lying, self-aggrandizing narcissist in the news CONSTANTLY. I’m finding some techniques that work to help regulate me a little better, but it’s a process and I’m always looking for new non-woo woo things to try. (Really spicy food can help distract me and calm me down from a panic attack. Wasabi almonds? Super tasty, great source of protein, and a good way to calm myself down. WIN-WIN!) High five, Wil!
My favorite EFT person is Brad Yates. Very straightforward; frequently teases out the subtle aspects of a given issue, has a sense of humor. And, you can change your beliefs and trauma around money in the same way as you can about other issues….it’s not so much about “tapping your way to riches” as you say, as dealing with the issues around money. And, as you decided EFT was B.S. & subsequently changed your mind, how do you know that you CAN’T “tap your way to riches”…? 😉 It’s possible that you are limiting yourself unnecessarily…a lot of what we get in life (great relationships, fulfillment, etc) depends on how much we can allow. Great post! I am impressed by your courage.
As always, thanks for sharing, Wil. Hooray for things being good, and Hooray for getting through what you needed to. Victory!
I can’t really put it into words, but I’ll try: I’m a stone, in a center, and your words are making me resonate.
I didn’t know I needed them.
Thank you.
Thanks for sharing. I have been trying to be open about my struggles with depression and anxiety. I found that trying to keep it hidden didn’t serve me and wasn’t doing a lot to help anybody else either. I’m glad that there seems to be a change in society that these struggles aren’t something to be embarrassed about or kept hidden. I’m happy to be a part of that change. And I thank you for helping lead it. I admire you and appreciate you.
As we pulled into the driveway we would feel it. A malevolent miasma oozing from the house. We knew my father was in one of his moods. The one where he was waiting for one of us to step out of line so he could pick on us, belittle us, make us fear him.
You never forget that feeling.
25 years of NC, apart from a brief time recently when I reconnected for my own peace of mind. He hadn’t changed, even though he tried to hide it for a time. I have no regrets going NC. I have no regrets reaching out. I have no regrets going NC again.
I have harmony and love in my life.
I wish love and joy to yourself and everyone else who has to recover from a toxic person.
Oof. This is so familiar. I’m so sorry. I see you.
For me, it was my ex. But the driveway fear is so palpable, even now. The feeling never goes away. I was fortunate enough not to have major anxiety when I was younger. Some, but not major. But every year I was with him, it got worse. I was afraid all the time. I still deal with the leftovers of that, but I’m getting better every day. I see both of you, and I wish you love and joy right back. You deserve it. YOU DESERVE IT.
Also? “Where it used to be is something that is almost indifference.” Yes. This. Getting there. We’ll get there.
Thank you for always being honest with us all and for sharing with us your moments, be it moments of triumph or struggle. You are heard.
The tapping thing gave me pause. I was doing online therapy for a few months and tapping was suggested. I tried it, but it felt foolish. I couldn’t imagine how it could possibly help and I gave it up very quickly. Based on your comments, I’ll look into it more and see if it’s something I should pursue.
Same for me, when I first tried it. If it matters, it clicked for me when I decided to not look for results, or judge myself. I was like, “I’m just going to do this, and I’m going to talk to myself the way I talk to the people I love the most. That’s it.”
I use the tapping to deal with anxiety. I pair it with some pacing and a little mantra. Mine is a breath in for 2 (It’s okay to be anxious) breathout for 2 (I choose to be calm). I don’t ever tell myself to not be anxious, because, well, you know…..
Wil,
You and I seem to have come from similar parental influences. My father, a raging Borderline personality and my mother, a classic Narcissist, had an enormous influence on my inner state. It was an impetus toward my searching out IFS and to become an IFS therapist, which was the last credential I earned in a long career (45 years) as an Integrative Healer. My primary client? Myself. I wanted to share with you the resource of Biodynamic CranioSacral Therapy. To my knowledge, it is the only hands-on technique to have the elemental, permanent impact of regulating a disregulated nervous system. A certified BCST practitioner has also received training in Somatic Experiencing, a modality in Trauma Resolution, learned and practiced within the guidance of the somatic (bodily) experience, developed By Peter A. Levine. <biodynamiccraniosacraltherapy.org>
<traumahealing.org>
I certainly hope you have already, or will consider the potential for exploring this healing option. On another note, I’m retired now, but am still sought out by, and respond to, others who have walked a lifelong path of healing the CPTSD that has been a continual companion on that path. I would welcome any contact with you, Wil, should you choose to be called to do so. A knowing Compassionate Witness to our experiences can be very valuable. For confidentiality reasons, I have avoided creating a robust online presence. Regardless, I’m happy to answer any questions or provide references about my experience and background as an Integrative Healer.
Many Blessings 🙏🏼,
Beth Stein
Your mental health journey gives me hope that one day my son and I will achieve a feeling of indifference instead of anxiety. My soon-to-be ex-husband is the source of our PTSD. I finally had the courage and financial ability to move us out of that environment. No more daily walking on eggshells. Thank you for sharing your journey. It gives me comfort to know another is fighting a similar battle and is on the road to healing. My son and I have lots of therapy in our future, but I now see a light at the end of this eldritch tunnel.
I appreciate your openness in discussing this part of your life. I have recently benefited from therapy helping me with so many parts of my journey. I wanted to thank you personally for posting after the devastating election results last year. I had lost my father unexpectedly in October, lost my mentor and foundation at work immediately after, and then had an incredibly negative outcome with a group I’ve volunteered with for 10 years leading me to just being lost. At the impact of the election I felt so lost. And you posted about reducing social media and spending time with your family and that really was what I needed to hear at that point in my life. I stopped volunteering with the group that wasn’t a good fit for me anymore, I reduced my social media intake, and I refocused my efforts on safeguarding myself and my family for the times coming. Like you our little pocket of reality is doing well and I am grateful for that. Therapy has led me to not accept a toxic work environment and not apologize for prioritizing my needs–I’m starting a new awesome opportunity at the end of the month and I am so grateful.
Just wanted to say thank you for sharing your perspective and the awesome projects you bring into this world. Wish you well in everything and I am so happy for you and the personal victories you are achieving. You are a wonderful human role model.
I love that you’re doing your bit to reduce the stigma around mental health struggles. I guarantee you’re making someone out there feel less alone and less weird about it, and you’re being the person you needed when you were growing up.
May we all strive to follow your example.
Oh my! Do I see you! Sadly, my healing journey didn’t start until I was 55. Now almost 15 years later, I am better, but . . . Yes, does take daily work for years. Some days are easier than others. My unrecognized PTSD is service related. Unrecognized because I did not know what was happening to me until I had an emotional break and called a hotline. It was bad. Fortunately, or unfortunately, (Really not sure which.) I was not institutionalized. I did isolate. I know now that is not such a good thing, but at the time, what I need to cope. I have been working on things since. I have found wonderful groups that are helping to teach me tools and give me support. I still tend to want to isolate, but with the support I have found, I do get out, as long as someone I know is with me. Yes a journey. Thank you so much for the resource recommendations. I have heard of Dr. LePera, but at the time, I wasn’t in a place to pursue that information. I believe we receive what we need, when we need it and/or when we are ready to receive it. This last bit is a new value that is been added. Therefore, a special thanks, because I believe I am ready to receive this information. Thank YOU!
Nervous system dysregulation is a new concept for me. Haven’t heard that phrase before, but it definitely rang some bells for me. I think I even kind of understand it without looking it up. (Though I will be researching it.) Why, you may ask, would I think that? When I had my break, I also shut down my emotions. A good part of my recovery has focused on recognizing the more negative emotions and learning tools to deal with them. You know, anger, distrust, depression, those lovely anxiety inducing emotions. Recently I had a couple of extraordinarily wonderful things happen to me. I found myself in anxiety mode. Why? These were good things. I shouldn’t be anxious. Then I realized, I need to re-learn how to accept hope and happy too. I had forgotten how to cope with the positive emotions too. Talk about a wow!
Bottom line, you are not alone in your journey. It’s not just you kids. 😀 Some of us older generation are on a recovery journey too. Throw in the senior citizen joys like arthritis, bad hips and knees, etc., and everyday that I get out of bed and face another day, is a good day. I am so grateful to have more good days than bad days again.
Thank you Wil, your timing is perfect. I am in my 50s and I was just thinking today how I haven’t felt this weight, this level of anxiety since I was a kid. It’s quite jarring thinking that I had dealt with and resolved this trauma decades ago, only to have it return with a vengeance with the current state of the world.
I will definitely check out the resources you included.
Hi Wil, You used to stop by our Bongo Booth at Comicon. Been a while. I have been trying to get in touch with you as I am doing a Spotlight on depression project and you should be a aprt of it. I have NFL stars, Track and filed Olympic Medalists,poets, Painters, artists, Gary Tyler, Jules Muck and others. We are also covering Systemic Racism and Depression and now Systemic Sexism and Depression. You can look me up. Bob Zaugh (I am also doing a third Our Town Live read and wante you for that also, but I am getting no response. [email protected]
I think people should try everything until they find what works for them. Looks like you’ve made a lot of progress, which bears out the choice you made for yourself. I wish you continued joy in your journey!
Thank you so much for sharing.
So much of what you mentioned sounds so familiar to me
I’m so incredibly proud of you, and so happy just to think of how far you’ve come in your healing journey from where you started. Your healing, and your openness with your struggles, continues to inspire my own. May every good thing find its way to you.
As someone with depression who is coming to terms with an added BPD revelation from multiple therapists over the past decade, it’s amazing to not feel alone anymore. (Yes, why were they so mean to that little girl for so long? What doodyheads!) My night terror stints haunted me well into my 30’s when I learned more coping skills a out how to even fall asleep without fear, so that part touches me for sure. Oh, how I love naps now. ZZZZ…
Thank you for granting so much grace to others and yourself when it can be so difficult. It’s a messy, beautiful trait.
We see you.
We love you
Hey Will. Please reconsider following Nicole. She has some questionable beliefs and follows some questionable people.
Can you be more specific?
Wil, it is in the sharing of your experiences that others are helped. At the gym yesterday, I met 2 lovely much younger women, one married with kids, one about to get married, and we were chatting about mental health. I extolled the virtues of IFS therapy and EMDR and emphasized that this process takes time. Neither had heard of either therapies, and both took notes. I hope that they take the action to get the help they need. This is how we must heal this world; it starts with each of us healing our childhood wounds so we don’t work our shit out ON others. The orange oaf is the perfect example of what happens when you don’t do this. He is a large, wounded toddler working his shit out ON others, only he has the power to get us all killed.
Thank you Will. Really. REALLY. Imagine that I’m writing a long outpouring of gratitude and personal anecdotes, and linking them to the resources you share. I don’t have the spoons for that right now, but the gratitude is deep nevertheless.
I think you’re brave to be so open about your experiences and how you’re feeling. And you’re generous to share the resources that have helped you. I’ll check them out, as it helps to have many tools available. Some of the tools I use are deep breathing, listening to music, and going for walks. They’re really helpful in calming my anxiety.
Thank you Will, this one hit hard with me even though I am thankfully on my own path of healing …I will gratefully look into some of the links you have so kindly provided ❤️🫶🏼 be well 💪🏼❣️
Thank you for being so vulnerable and open with us. This is beautifully written I loved reading it
I’m passing this along to my wife. I’ve no idea if it will help or not but she, as we all are (at least the sane ones) dealing with a great deal of anxiety from what the Nazis in office are doing. I don’t know what EFT is; I’ll dig into a bit with your links. (EF is another matter. Education First is a good company and sponsor a fun bike team.) One of the bright areas in my childhood were my parents. I can only wish I am to my kids like they were to me. It’s weird how I remember most clearly my parenting fails though and not some of the good things (I hope) I did. They tell me I’m a good dad so I have my fingers crossed. They certainly are turning out terrifically though so I hope I had a part in that. I know my wife did for sure! Keep your head up. Cream floats to the top and now you’re making butter. (?? Not sure what that means but I meant it well!) Haha.
I am a new reader of this blog, after listening to the beginning of “Still Just A Geek”
I admire how open you are about mental health and how to cope with it. I wish I had someone that I knew about being this open when I was younger. It would have helped me to see other people had experiences other than just being fine.
Thank you for sharing your true self. It’s such a vulnerable and freeing place to be. I also have cptsd. I live with anxiety and derealization. The current events in the world; they just seem to continually change in a way that makes it difficult for a person to catch up and breathe. Childhood was a rough time for me as well. A mother with narc traits who was emotionally and physically abusive. I was neglected in all sorts of ways. A father who had schizophrenia, leaving me to feel that I couldn’t ever blame him for his behavior because he ‘couldn’t help it’. I’ve gone through a lot of therapy, and as much as it does help in some areas, it can’t help in all the areas. Like the body responses you mentioned. It’s like bodies just want to walk down one road, while the mind and heart want other roads. And keeping them all in the same timeline is a little tiring. Politics, world events, even the three-letter W word taking place… Phew. I was laid-off from a 4-year job a few weeks ago and my body decided it was time to begin the chapter titled “Let’s shiver under the blankets for a few days”. I’m finally starting to come out of it a little bit. Feeling a little more in control. It’s kind of awful to say but, I guess I’m used to these cycles. And you’re right, it is like being Frodo and waking up to a glowing new day. You’re not alone on this planet. Your experiences are valid and real. Thank you for helping others find a voice. Your journey and sharing is helping so many people. Lots of warm strength for you, Wil. You’re doing a great thing here. <3
I’m so thankful for you. Until I had my own kids and started comparing their childhood to mine, and knowing you – I didn’t even realize that wasn’t normal. I should not be on edge all the time, trying to read the temperature of the room. My dad is immature. He’s a bully. My mom was an emotionally immature abused person, so she wasn’t much help either. And they is are not parents to me as an adult. I see them a few times a year at family things. He refuses to acknowledge Finn and only uses Claire. He might as well be dead, he’s already a ghost.
This month has been filled with the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. I really will use some of the things you posted, thank you. (one of my kids teachers uses the tapping thing on her students and it’s fucking magic)
I could no longer afford my therapist. Then we got a 5 figure tax return (omg I got to replace my shoes that were falling apart!)
Then I found out I’m losing my health insurance again on July 1.
Then two really good job interviews! And an offer! A real, Honest to golly JOB. It starts June 30. This nightmare will be over.
And then we have to wait 90 days for health insurance.
My kids get to spend a week at camp while we have some time alone and it’s wonderful! And my neighbors 10 year old boy was hit by a car yesterday while crossing the road on his bike and he passed away and all I want to do is hug my kids.
It’s a lot.
My heart just feels heavy today.
Thank you for sharing your struggles & triumphs. I have The Body Keeps the Score and have been so afraid to start it because of the fear of reliving everything again. This gives me hope that as I begin this journey there is some form of peace on the other side.
I just want to give you a big old hug mister Wil Wheaton. You’re awesome, thank you for sharing and being you. You’re the ultimate!
Thank you Will for the detailed explanation of your journey. It is helpful to me to hear similar stories to mine and thereby know that I am not the only different one.
I’ve had “The Body Keeps the Score” on my To-Read Shelf for a while now – thanks for the recommendation. I’ll move it up in the order. Tapping is wonderful stuff 🙂
Me, always looking to the bright side, the half-full glass: Nothing like that “Frodo awakening” feeling the mind enforces after a period of stress and anguish. Been there, partially for the same reason (my country’s government, now that I am old and can´t start over elsewere), but on the other hand I am a child of mostly loving parents.
Very refreshing that you don’t feel the need to hide your issues but share them to help others, and make emphasis on the “I’m healthy and safe, my family is healthy and safe, I have all the work I need, I have time and space for activities” part.
You are awesome, thanks for letting us in.